morbid. stagnant. that's the phase i'm trapped in now. it's not the toomuchtimebuttoolittlethingstodo blues. it's just that i miss the bestfriend so badly that i bump into him in LALA land even in my 15minute naps. summary: bad.
but on rethinking, this sudden temporal absence of the bestfriend isn't exactly all that bad. more interaction with others, more independance, and more self-reflection. life's not just about whining, complaining, and bickering anymore. i think before i talk, look before i walk, open my arms and reach out to people around. wiser, perhaps. more thoughtful too. mmmm.... summary: more appreciative.


MISSION: girl
still going on. not forgotten! heehee


4.46am. currently suffering from a linguistic lag. words aren't flowing (okay what's new).
things to do:
*the bestfriend's christmas present
*get my butt down to ikea
*Send chalet photos to cousin
*register for SAT
*take driving liscence
*wash clothes
*run
*disturb ce--les-t
*meet brend for breakfast date
*charge camera batteries
*get a job
*blade properly


yadda yadda yadda. i haven't been acting stupid since the absence of the bestfriend. c-eles-t! where are you? i want to act stupid and say stupid things. come out right now! hide no more! hey tickle tickle.. come out come out, wherever you are!


and yes, to find out where i've been my dear c-eles-t, click HERE