you think your past week has been wonderful. you have no worries, no qualms about anything. you spent every possible second with your boy, and he meets you everytime he has a chance to. you do things together, go out together, watch endless dvds until you both fall asleep. you think nothing can get better than this. you think that your failing relationship is actually going to get better. you actually start to love him again.


and then at the end of it when you ask him out to keep you company for a little while, he'd rather stay home to do his stuff, and stay home cause he thinks his parents would be angry if he's missing all the time. that gets you kinda upset, but it's okay, you'll whine a little and get over it. and then he says the most hurting words you can ever imagine: "do you know what's enough?"

oh man my eyes hurt like crazy. they feel so dry and sore, i doubt i'd be able to wear my lenses tomorrow. will have to put on my big cbunky spectacles to work. eeeewwww.
just came back from supper (technically speaking marcus' supper) with eun and marcus. it's interesting to hear a guy's point of view. and wow he has his own bike. hmphhf. i want my own transport too.
dinner at the rice table with the mjdds people at suntec last night to celebrate neo's birthday. was kinda pleasant to see all the old faces again. i do admit i was bored at times cause i couldn't quite catch what they were saying. pouts. but i had a great time anyway. as usual we didn't take any photos again.
arghhhhh i wanna blog about last week's events but i shall continue another day. nods nods.

it amazes me how i can feel more appreciated by someone who's a thousand kilometres away as compared to someone who lives ten minutes away from me. i really wish he were here by my side, instead of being so far away. and it doesn't help when one text message costs 60 cents.




silly memories stuck in my head to help me pass my day by..."tomatensaus!". "spleetog!", "ik ben glory!"
(: giggles. come back metal mouth techno richie.

two consecutive nights of alcohol is giving my head a hard time. tonight was especially wonderful. but all these will end on tuesday. then, you'll be gone.