i miss
*gege dear
*tt tall tall thin thin girl (boy?) with highlighted streaks and a rotten fila bag and a UGLY (but not rotten)blue fila bag
*the stupid cow who doesn't know how to answer the phone whenever i call her
*vi-vis
*stupid e-D.! i duno where the hell he is


i wanted to
*sleep at 10pm but someone said she's going to play gunbound with me after Charmed but she didn't in the end
*sleep at 11pm but it seems as if many memories/worries are painted on the eyelids of my eyes. i see them everytime i close my eyes
*go for a run in the afty but it was pouring cats and dogs
*wash mr. mouse mouse's house but i couldn't get my butt movin
*msg ko-h xia-o hu-i but i became too lazy to type the sms
*cry when i looked into the mirror and saw your reflection in my eyes. you're on the extreme end of singapore -whines
*go out with weilin at 9pm-ish but i realised i have no money at all


i dream of
*my gege appearing right in front of me this very moment
*capturing a rainbow in a cookie jar
*loving and being loved


i am
*irritated because nan-a-na sent this to my friendster account before going into ns
i know i'm not supposed to be talking to you
anymore, but yah, sorrie...
took quite a while to write this, but could only
finish it today. dun think it sounds nice, dunno
y i'm sending you. but if i don't now, i might
never get the chance again. dun haf a
title...dunno wat to call it. dun think i'll ever
give it one.

They say that if i love you,
i should let you go.
But what do they know?
That's just impossible to do.

I can say a thousand words,
I can tell you a million things.
But it still won't mean a thing,
if nobody's listening.

All my time spent thinking about you,
all my life wanting to love you,
i'll never regret.
Maybe it's not worth it.
Maybe i'm being a fool.
But tell me it's being done for you,
and i'll ask questions no more.

Ever since the first time i saw you,
till the very last second,
every image, sound, even smell
Will be forever kept inside me.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm hurting you.
Please tell me if i do.
Everything i've done's been done for you...
All i ever wanted was to see you smile...

Every word to you,
i fear it to be my last.
But things are out of my hands,
i can only tell you i love you.

All my time spent thinking about you,
all my life spent loving you,
i'll never regret.
I'm sure it is worth it.
Even though you might think me mad.
But tell me it's being done for you,
and i'll ask questions no more.

i've rejected u flat in the face 5? 6? times so why dun u just go away...yeah everybody loves you adores you thinks you're great. i know that too but the thing is, there's no feeling. what do you want me to say?? if i talk to you, they say i'm leading you on. if i don't talk to you, they say i'm mean. go to hell lar


i have to learn to
*be mushy (cm will know what i mean)
*be more demure and girlish
*stop crying
*cook


i need
*my gege dear
*lots of money
*a marie france bodyline slimming course
*an intensive skin(face) treatment programme
*Soo Kee jewellery's Brilliant Rose pendant