for that few moments,
i went astray.
how tempting it was.


and then reality came to slap me across the face and i nearly died of guilt.
to think i actually entertained that thought.
no way will i let you jeopardise what i have.

argh. fatigue. period days make me tired. especially on the first day.

booooooo. thumbs down.

):

the boy fell today. pooooor thing! and he's coming over to get nursed.

love! the best medication.

muahahaha.

it was niceeee talking to quin ytd. yummy yummy yum. i miss that girl.

errrrrrrr. my limbs are not coordinating. i think i shall go and bathe and sleep somemore until he comes. wheeeeeeeeeee.

oh. errrrrrr. staying back in school on wednesday, anyone? i need help for matrices. ):

bawls...

simi cramer's rule la.. make my head cramp loh.

after further reconsideration,she's not "like shite loh". i shall pretend that i gave her a chance to redeem herself.

she's ah lian. so i don't know, and i cannot, appreciate her beauty.

perhaps only people of her league, her fellow ah-lian-ers, would think otherwise. afterall, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. nyahiahiahia.

//those eyes are cast on me now!

nani nani poo poo! =p

halloween is approaching. i want a halloween party! (highly not possible) i want lots of tricks and treats. erm maybe not. i'll just settle for the treats? yes? heeeee.


WARNING: the following contents will be heavily doused with icky-ness of worms and creepy crawlies.


in a week's time, my worm will be stuck in camp daily, like all other nsf. it's going to be a big big change to my daily routine:-
*no more instant replies to messages
*no more lazy afternoons rolling around in my room watching tv
*no more $6.50 movies
*no more talks til wee hrs of the night
*no more online chats
boohooohoooooo. pls shower me with more love and attention due to the (soon to be) sudden shortage of it.
on the brighter side:-
*my phonebill wouldn't go bust. my dad will be overjoyed.
*time for weekday flings!!!!! no???? hahahaha.


i have 6 more days to pack the survival kit for creepy crawlies.
so far the items in the list...photos, little card, CKcrave, hersheys kisses.
muahahaha.. i feel like i'm packing for a girl.
i duno what else. shall msg the current stagmont people to ask how life is like over thr. lalala.

spillover from yesterday,

it was the day when the old meet the new. the past meets the present. and being in the PRESENT situation, of coz the present dominate! muahhaahah.

thanks for being so understanding. or trying to understand although you don't quite understand.

shopping with daddy and mummy today. oh. and my brother's beloved dinosaur too ya. got a pair of white slippers (affinity with white slippers maybe. my third pair already!) and a top from dorothy perkins. there's very nice lingerie over at la senza!!! (momo..got fur ball ball nighties! haha)

bonggggg. bing bong.

hickory dickory dock.

(:

she really looks like shite loh. like shit like shit like shit. hair's like a mop. her smile is crooked, her hands like stick and the skin's so dull. her butt's got no perkiness. aiya crap. like shite. and u whined over her for 6 months. crazy. bitch lohhhh.


anyway that aside, i must say that going to town is theraputic. heals the mind and the soul baby! (((((((((((:


and nothing beats the triumphant feeling in my heart right now. can you hear it thump thump thump? after boogling over it for so many thousand million months, you finally see the person you hated so much.. whom you thought must've been so great. only to find out that she's like. so average.


current mood: AWESOME!!!


maybe sometimes in life, i really should stop thinking too much. grins.

indiana jones on channel i just now. action with a dice of humour. yayyy.
gone were the days where daddy brings home indiana jones video tapes from the rental store and the big daddy and big bro sit with the lil sis to watch tv. now i sit alone on my bed and watch tv. booooo.


argh. matrices! trying to figure it out. row one row two row three zero here one here zero below more zeros below. bah bah black sheep. come, sing with me. going seh i am. but i'll cope muahahaha.


one more day of work at the night safari this week and i'll be able to enjoy my long weekend. long awaited for okayyyy. grin grins.


bah bah black sheep. row one row two row one column two row two column one bah bah bahhhhh.


ermm okay hahahah.

woke up early this morning, bathed, changed, and pack my stuff. only to receive a phonecall telling me that there's no soci lecture this week! hahaha. when i finally decide to not read up myself and stop acting smart, THERE IS NO LECTURE. ahem. it is not meant to be. ahem ahem.

*grins*

night safariiiii!! i lurveeee. come people. join the night safari crew! be part of the family. you get to see cute tourists cute jap girls cute jap boys cute little babies and happy animals grazingggg and feasting and leaping around. if that's not enough, then OK LA! you get money! not happy issit.

lemme think. errrrrrrrrrr. okay that's all.

bye!

oh yay. i'm finally earning now! yay yay! 30 dollars earned tonight. i'm overjoyed. *GRINS* last two days were on the job trainings. i wanted to die.


no work on sunday! yipps! i can be a piggy. *Snoreeeeeeees* and then maybe the fever will go away.

):
i have a sore throat and a slight fever. boo. it always happens when i start with a new job. frowns.
the night safari job is sending me on emotional ups and downs. whilst working i get highhhhh but after that i come home and cry. frowns.


oh yay ezdi's going to feed me during raya. i can't wait!! slurps. raya pls come soon. i'm waiting for gorgeous malay food. oh ya then after that singapore's reservoir's water level will go to an all-time low. hahahahaaha


chongming becomes paddington bear today. pls call him paddington bear. thank you very much sir, thank you very much mdm. pls enjoy your tram ride day.

i think,
i'm tired.

training's ended. and work starts this coming thursday. sigh. it doesn't help when you don't actually want to work, and worse still when somebody's not supportive of you working. bites.


that aside, it's yayness round and round. tram rides, smelly animals, insect infested forests, PRETTY GIRLS, cute tourists and long bus rides to and fro the zoo and home. oh. i forgot the core attration. MONEY.


i woke up late to day. and so i missed the maths test which i've been so eagerly waiting for. ya larrr not like i know how to do but MATHS TEST okay.. it's been like cow long since i had a MATHS TEST okay!!


and blame waking up late on bad sleeping habits. i can't sleep. just can't sleep. everytime i close my eyes, i think about a hundred and one million things and i'll be tossing and turning for the whole night. fcuk shit.


maybe i need a doctor. fcuk. fcuk. fcuk. i really wonder how i've been going on such little slp for the past few weeks.


one more time. just one more time ya.. FCUK!!!!!!!!!
ok. that ends my bad mood.










These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

wormyyyy!!





((((((((((((((((((((((((:




Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together
I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life

my language is deteoriating. from shit to shit. okay that doesn't make sense does it? let me elaborate.
say, from the solidified kinda shit to the watery kinda shit. from stomachache to lao sai. muahhhahahhaa.
GROSS LA! if you actually pictured that in your head, you're SICK!


been getting high on econs lectures. every econs lecture is a joy. it's like, art and craft lesson! and i can't believe i actually understand bloody econs. oh man. high on knowledge and graphical stimulation (like real graphs!!) muahaha.


i..... er.....
have alot of thoughts in my head but i can't put them into words.
so ya hihihi everyone i love everyone i miss everyone. and if i've not been talking to you it's not that i don't wanna talk to you. it's just that talking to people is so brain exhausting. i keep having to think of the words and sentences. honestly, it's tiring..for me at least. i don't really like to use my brain you see. so ya...........all of you love me right? don't want me to age and die so soon right???? hahaha.. so must be understand kayyyyyy.
so basically that summarizes everything in my head.


oh yay i start work at night safari soon! four to five training sessions and income will start rolling in. nahhh not income for spending ya. income to feed my bank account and collect interest. why am i working? i don't know. kill time i guess. too much time at hand makes me disorganised (oh yes the irony of life).

once again i love everyone!!!!!

to my dearest girlfriend whom i've been MIA-ing on (and needless to say vice versa la!),
all you need is loveME.
grins. grins.
and then everything will be alright.
*sings* everything's gonna be alright..everything's gonna be alright..
in the meantime,
sing to yourself "i will survive.. i will surviveeee"
muacks.
i still love you okay.

was down at holland v with my parents today and guess who i saw? the singapore idol finalists. don't ask me what they were doing there ya.
anyways. maia is cute. BUT VERY SHORT LAR!
and slyvester is, but of coz, cute cute cute!!!
jerry ong is like shit. i think sucky is his middle name.
how can my david yeo be out and him be in! BITES.
the rest, err didn't notice.
but the bunch of them didn't appeal lar. they looked more like a buncha lians and bengs hanging out together outside pet symphony, waiting for a beng brother or a lian sista to drive up in a nice car.


holland v cold storage has a PRETTY BOY working at the raw beef section! muahahhaa. his name is DESMOND WONG and his smile is like *SHINGGGGGGGG!!!!!* muahahahhaas.
i shall go holland v cold storage more often. SO CUTE. so so so so so cute.


errrrrrrrrr. i'm getting new furniture for my room. and a new coat of paint too.


Hmmmmmmmmm.
baby is sick. boo hoo hoo. i hope he gets well soon!
a one-hour trip just to deliver a box of lozenges and a hug is worth it... as long as it brings a smile to your face and make you feel a little better for that moment.

muaheeheehee.

the NEWSFLASH was scary ya. babes, next time pls state minor or serious. if not i'll just die in anxiety. lol.


gimson! where art thou? i need your advice my fellow levi's jeans looker!
appear!

there's something about jigsaws and people around me these days.

damai's blog entry with the pretty precious moments.
momo and her supposed jigsaw for danny (which has been traded in for biotherm men, or has it not?)
and wormy gng to buy a box of piecces for me to fix so that i'll stop thinking about unnecessary stuff which causes me to bawl. haa. i'll need more than a million pieces cause i'm just far too free.
talking about too free, maybe i do need a job.
see,
one week - school hours - working hours
= (24 hrs x 7) - (12 hrs) - n working hrs


and with working, you get money, so, new equation being,
one week - school hours - working hours - shopping hours
= (24 hrs x 7) - (12 hrs) - n working hours - countless shopping hrs




THEREFORE, i need a job.
alternatively i could settle with a few-million piece jigsaw. haahaahaa.
okay fine. not funny.
GRrrr. bites.

insecurities drive you to do things which you shouldn't be doing. to pry into other's people's private business. in your curiousity you killed yourself. you died. but you couldn't let others know of the cause of your death.

aie aie. horrible death it was. i was revived by your sweet utterings. i'll never do it again. i never told you what killed me, and you'll never find out. but aie. i'll say it one more time. i'll never do it again.

oh no.. oh no.. *shakes head*

it's all about trust. and i trust you.

a hug for u and a hug for me.
little paw paw loves big paw paw.

a dip in a person's self confidence can zap her cheery mood away. and guess who's at the receiving end of my pms? heh. the frequency of these mood eruptions is getting out of hand. calls for a need for Control and moderation. gonna be hard for meeeeeeeeee who always does things on impulse but ey, i'll try.


down to taka yesterday with celest and mermaid. dead drop gorgeous figures those models have. long slender bodies and never-ending legs. soft bouncy hair. and did i mention flawless skin? those girls must've been at least 1.8m tall la! haahaaa. having my mind worrying about the quarrel i just had with wormy didn't stop me from oogling over those models. MUahahahaha. slurps. SLURPS SLUrrrrrrrrrps.


anywayssss.
yipppeee. i'm going to have the sunday all to myself.
JUST ME AND MY TV.
the tv rawks lar. rawks more than anything.


dude's comin back frm taiwan training in, lemme count, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 days time! yippeeee!!!!! then can sms sms sms. hip hip hooray!