it's so irritating. i give people a dateline and they just can't keep to the dateline. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE. doing you a favour and all you do is drag and drag and drag and drag. how can you expect me to be efficient when everyone's not cooperating? CB.

won't the bloody haze go away? i think Indo**sia needs a new govt. because they suck at their job. year in year out forests get burnt and who dies? it's an act of terrorism i tell you. burn the forests, smoke out south east asia with haze and then invade the country.
INDOFUCKINGNESIA do you really have that many trees to burn?


it's so hard to breathe with this haze. it's suffocating me!!!!
i alighted from the bus and looked across the field and i couldn't even see my block.
PSI 150 my foot laaaaaa okay. it's fucking 50 higher at like 200.


cblaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

i want everyday to be as fulfilling as today.




and i squeezed my little funky today. she's a furry ball of joy!

was it the right thing to do? to give it all up? can i keep the laughter and forget the pain? will my tears start flowing if i stop running? will you still try and keep trying to win me back again? my heart is bleeding but i've got no right to say a thing because i wanted it this way. a week has past now how long more will this feeling stay..we still talk and meet up but the emptiness just grows. why do you pretend like everything's the same; that nothing has changed? what do you really want?

today i saw the fckg hottest person i've ever seen in my WHOLE life. i'll faint if u put him 1metre from me.
it's good to sit at the despatch counter. you have treats for your eyes every once in a while.

hello William; goodbye benjamin...you're no longer at the top of my list. hahahahhaa........

after being together with that idiot lovely boy for a countless number of months weeks days hours seconds, we finally caught our FIRST midnight movie together.
milestone i tell you.
wahahhahahaa......


the coming week will be my last at DHL. pretty sad to leave cause i've got pretty awesome colleagues who make me laugh till my tummy hurts.


sentosa looks amazing at night. especially on a weekday night. lovely lovely place. but contrary to beliefs, we did not get lost running in sentosa on purpose. pppfffttt!


i miss chen shihan and reading her entry makes me wanna turn BLACK again. i miss those days out in the sun, soaking up happy rays. (:


i'm a very random person. thus the very random post.

steve irwin passed away this morning after a stingray barb went through his chest. steve irwin, THE crocodile hunter.
i'll always miss that croc man.

hello my good people who still bother to give my URL a click or two once in a while. i shall henceforth revive my blogspot with an array of fantastically fantabulous photos fotos. (changed for the emphasis) hahaha...




my brother's wedding 20th july 2006




Meetup with miss china aka dearest vcap

and we got busy with the camera while cheryl (eun's sis) was busy trying on dresses in the fitting room



Jiawen's birthday bbq (6th aug 06)

the birthday girl herself dorned in lightsticks cause she kept going missing in the crowd.


my dearest dearest dearest meinu pam!





damai's 21st birthday!!
*inserts imaginary picture cause i don't have ANY ): *


Dear and i, both very happy after the awesome awesome magically beautiful firework display (13th aug 06)



DHL (since 5th july 06)

my cheery mates who make my day at work bright and cheery...jenna,joanne,brenda,yeemei

not forgetting marss.. she has a MASTERS DEGREE y'all. say waaaaaaaaah!

the 2 who squeeze in the cosy counter with me (:

fiona on the right who threatens to burn everyone's hair

carol on the leftie. quote unquote "...now heavy raining outside...."



and things which make me excruciatingly HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






finally, reason to suspect my boyfriend is gay. -insert frowns-







till next time my loves!!!!!!!!!!!
glowy misses you you you and you. yes you! ((((((:

boiled barley water for the boy today and sent it to him cause he's running a slight fever from all that tanning yesterday. the sudden appearance of sweet young things in his life poses as a potential threat, hence the surge in care concern and attentiveness. what a bother.


have also skipped work taken leave from work for a whole week to stay home to take care of sick guinea pig and grieve over the loss of the other. told my manager that my grandmother passed away. well she did, except she passed away 12 years ago. what was i supposed to say? pig is sick? i don't think she'd take that for an excuse. sigh!!!


have plans to wear black throughout the entire month. also to input role play and be SAD and MISERABLE all day. (not too hard a task, just think about pig who left)must make my lie look credible.

for the one who always had her nose in everything,



who liked to tug on the threads of all the floor mats,



who liked to go "hmmmm? yes?",



who only liked her vegetables fresh,



who took her baths without struggling,

who looked pretty when her fur was nicely combed,



and even when it was not.



who was a friend and companion to both Funky and i,






and brightened my every day.



it was a life well lived, albeit short. you stayed strong even though you were in pain. you held on and kept your promise, and waited for me to feed you for the last time before you let it go. my silky darling, even in your sickness, you were most gorgeous. and my last words to you stand true - silky baby you're still pretty now okay and i love you.





SILKY.
04.07.04 - 24.07.06
these 2 years plus have been wonderful. thank you for all the memories.

my brother's getting married on thursday! so busy busy busy.

been working working working.
i'm at DHL tagging elephants to fly them around the world.
HEH.

bye loves. <3
gotta rush out to run more errands. sigh!

thank you for swapping footwear with me; going on tippy toes in my high heels while i trudge around like ronald macdonalds in your comfy shoes, just cause my feet hurt.

thank you for looking silly and hopping around in botanical gardens from lamp post to lamp post like a rabbit just to cheer me up.

i love my weekend because i have brilliant friends who come pounding at my door at 9am in the morning in blood, sweat, and tears.
and they drag a girl who hasn't slept a wink in 36 hours all the way to east coast park to glide (i did quite well hor) on 8 wheels. HAA.
so now the girl who hasn't stepped into the sun since 21st january 2006 is officially BLACK with sunburnt shoulders.
!@#@$%%&@$#!@#$#$^^%**(^#$!#!#@@
you two owe me one!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRR!

hello worldly whurly whirl world.
say hello to glory the zookeeper.
this weekend, i have 2 guinea pigs, 1 rabbit, 1 hamster, and 2 humongous tortoises to take care of. so i walk from the balcony to the kitchen to the toilet so say hi/bye to all the animals every morning/night.
haha.. anyone going overseas? you can leave your pets with me. i gaurantee optimal comfort and care. (:

hehehe.. my boy gets to be a mystery shopper at fish&co. we're going to eat FREE and get paid to eat. twice!
why's he always full of this sort of shit. the last time round i remember he got paid to watch an advert. *grumbles* well, at least this time round i get to be part of it. TEE HEE HEE.


steph's birthday party today buaahaahaaa. a 5 year old sweetie kept me entertained. i smile at the innocence 5yearolds bring along with them. *big beams*
hey girl hope u liked what we got for u (:


are there times when certain things just don't get out of your head? they linger in your mind every once in a while; you pause to think, but you shake the thought off. you're just thinking too much. many many many many many years have passed. the person probably doesn't even remember you. hmmmm... those brief moments were oddly pleasing but i don't even know what to make out of it. hide and seek i say.
whoa what was that. tsk tsk tsk.




i look out of my window and i laugh out loud. he who has the absolutely gorgeous body has pikachu bedsheets. HAHAHA. how macho. (((((((((((((((:

yayy.
in the past 2 days, i have:-
*ran 10k
*finished 2 books
*swam my 30
*looked at jason's (not so) cute butt
*breakfast-ed with friends
*played mahjong with gong gongs
*gone for steamboat with 2 pretty (dumb and dumberer) + 3 handsomes (namely skinny, medium and buibuivertically challenged)
*went shopping (HE shop i WALK)
*stood at the pet shop window for 15 minutes looking at fluffy lionheads and saying "SO CUTE!!!!!!"
*walked down chinatown, tanjong pagar, raffles,and saying WAHHHH so cool


but of all things, i have forgotten to sleep!
shall do that after i bathe.. my legs feel like jelly.. wobble wobble.. hahaha.. and i smell like chlorine.. hahahahahahaha....

if there's one thing i do best, it's putting my future at stake. maybe i indulge and yearn too much to enjoy the pleasures of life now that i fail to give it foresight and think about the future. yes, i think that would be the case. unless otherwise stated, i think my priorities lie, not on succumbing to the society's norms, but to enjoy my days, just how I want it to be.

what do i want? that's very subjective and many would think it's not a feasible ideal. but what i really want at the end of the day is to settle down and lead a simple life. just having you by my side. it doesn't really matter how we get by, we surely will. I'll pick up some useless job, that doesn't require brainwork cause I do not like to use my brain, work like a slob, and maintain a neat and tidy cosy little home. i don't even mind living on candles at night.

What I really want in life, I've already found

you'd say what about your kids? you're not thinking for them!

and this is when i proceed to hurl myself at the closest wall that will break all my joints upon the impact of body knocking against wall, afterwhich the wall crumbles and succeessfully buries me. and by the time the rescue team reaches me underneath all that debris and dust, my body will be convulsing in shock and suffering from dehydration. in the ambulance i'll be hyperventilating, struggling to breathe from the oxygen mask while grimacing at it's rubbery plastic-ky odour leaving a bitter taste in my throat. and paramedics will be sticking needles into my skin, conscientiously missing the vein and poking into me over and over again till finally they get the right spot. maybe i'm thinking too much. i probably wouldn't be able to smell no shit or feel no shit. and finally i will give up the struggle and let myself go

Oh wow glory nice try. nice attempt AGAIN at predicting your eventual ending. Try harder next time. After-effects of too much channel newsasia updates of the yogyakata earthquake that reads 6.2 on the richter scale. Thousands and thousands of deaths.. so so terrible.

So you see at the end of the day, whatever you want you cannot achieve unless you're the richest person in the world. you've no choice you just got to do it. BOO HOO HOOOOOOO.

Upon saying that, glory continues to crunch on her blueberry morning. Bows to everyone and thanks them for spending 5 minutes on glory's incessant nonsensical fiddle-faddle.

"...you make the best decisions for yourself."


really?
sometimes i think i'm not exactly the best decision maker.
or at least, i'm not very good at implementing those decisions i make.
thus resulting in failure.
i need someone to hop in to scold me yell at me.
soft approaches don't work on me. give me bricks and stones.

i look back and smile at how we've been talking to each other on the phone daily from all the way back in sec4. 5 years you've lent me a listening ear, shared stories and jokes with me. 5 years of incessant chatter, wise advice (which i hardly ever heed to and therefore i should burn in hell forever and ever amen), laughter and tears. you've been there to catch every fall, although you probably created 10 000 of those "fall(s)". you've given me the support i've needed, and the strength i need to go on from day to day.



5 years - from friend to family.
i love you so much.
i could go on like this for another 5 years.
i wouldn't mind another 50.

i toss and turn, trying hard to fall asleep. i lie awake trying to keep my eyes shut. i try to take long breaths to relax but something (i wish i knew what) at the back of my head keeps me up.


i think the lights are preventing me from sleeping. i climb out of bed to turn the night lights off. half an hr later, i think the darkness makes me nervous. i climb out again to turn them on.


how should i sleep? maybe i should sleep face up. no wait, this doesn't feel comfortable. let's try turning to the right. no wait, this doesn't feel right either. what if there's something behind my back which i can't see? okay. maybe let's try turning my back to the wall - ahh.. this way i won't be afraid! no wait, i still can't fall asleep.


maybe i should bring out my notes to read. that should put me to sleep. no wait, i should sleep and leave everything else till tomorrow. no maybe i shld just climb out of bed to study since i can't fall asleep. no!!! i need to sleep now or you won't have the energy to study tomorrow.


thoughts like these leave me sleepless.




hoho. something to make me grin about. someone brought me my fav. century egg porridge at 11+ in the night, all the way from geylang. *heart melts* oh! oh! and it gives me a warm fuzzy to know that the journey from geylang to my place took 2 hours.
now everyone, say "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..."