Cute or what?

mahjong's so hard... why don't you just feed me carrot sticks?

it's 4.43 am. i would very much like to say sleep beckons and i'm off to bed. but, i'm nowhere near sleep state. not nodding off, not even close to a batter of an eyelid. i should just do away with sleep for today since i'll have to be up by 7am. HAHA.




random thought for the day:
no one loves me more than you do.

valentine's day was a simple affair of steamboat together with ryan and shihan. i over-estimated our appetite and bought 8 persons share of food, leaving us with very bloated tummies.
i must add that i was pleasantly surprised seeing a post left for me on my own blog. :D through all the years we've known each other, there wasn't a time he took time to pen down his thoughts unless i bitched and made a fuss out of it. so you can imagine the smile on my face; the upward tilting corners of my lips when i saw the unexpected message left for me. :D
the day started off with a very romanteeek 5k jog with shihan at midnight. there we were, taking in the fresh air and cool breeze against our faces, in the stillness of the night. just the two of us. it was so quiet i could only hear her breathing and mine.. and for a couple of split seconds here and there, i thought i could hear her heart thumping. SO romantic la. PLUS with the full moon and countless number of stars overhead... haiya it's the most salah thing. so appropriate if it were ryan so unappropriate cause it's shihan. but all the same, i love you bitch. HEE HEE.

BABY!!! its me writing on your block. surpriseeee!
Happy valentine's day my dear dear. its been one plus years since we were both together.
how time flies and now i m getting out of army soon. the pass couple of weeks without army life has been fantastic. i have been able to spend so much time with u
and i bet u are enjoying every moment of it. i have not heard any complains from u for the pass couple of weeks that u arent able to go out with me or havent seen me for days. looking forward to tonight's steamboat with u dear. i bet it wil be great since its prepared my u, my truely. hugs dear dear love u so much. and once again
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
MUACKSSSS!!

overdose of HRM notes brings me to the point where i wanna list out my top 10 favourite munchies
1. half boiled eggs
2. french toast smeared with ketchup
3. potato salad by yours truly
4. egg mayo sandwich
5. xiao long bao from geylang lorong 11
6. egg tart from crystal jade
7. fried squid body/head from old chang kee
8. snickers chocolate bar (original)
9. seasoned baby octopus from great world city sushi bar
10. mrs. field's double chocolate fudge brownie....


and then i come to realise that 10 isn't enough.. i still want..


11. har gao from marine parade hawker centre
12. cheong fun from the same place again
13. roti prata with cheese from ENAQ
14. shrimps from LJS
15. mushroom attack NYDC
16. cold storage black pepper chicken steak
17. cold storage bacon sticks
18. smoked salmon straight from the gourmet packaging
19. ji si mian from holland v
20. black pepper crabs from JOHOR!


m on the phone with ryan ng and perhaps, 20 isnt enough!


21. beef hor fun from geylang lorong 11 (i think)
22. popcorn from plaza singapura
23. double cheese taco ball from plaza singapura!
24. grilled calamari from fish n co
25. steamboat from mummy dearest (yay!!!)
26. carl's junior superstar burger
27. nonya zhang from... actually i dunno where
28. haagen daaz strawberry cheese cake
29. macdonald's milkshake
30. 30cents spring roll from JJC malay food stall but now no more already boo hoo
31. century egg porridge from chinatown market
32. chwee kuey from tiong bahru
33. glutinous rice from chinatown market
34. wu tao gou from chinatown market also
35. chicken porridge from tiong bahru
36. bbq sting ray and kang kong from taman jurong market
i shld stop thinking about foood.... i'm getting hungry.... boooooo....

the past week has been void of swimming (BOO HOO HOO).
made trips down to town several times to look for stuffs.


and a late night mahjong session with jessie + james + boo bear and abit of ryan on thursday night. layed on the sofa all night with jessie and james debating over why guys don't understand girls. well of cause it was neverending and it certainly didn't come to any conclusion at 6am in the morning. haiyaa guys will be guys and girls, girls. :D


saturday at liquid room to celebrate bryan's 21st. i swear i never had so much fun in the past 365 and 1/4 days. i saw a side of my sec2 mates which i never knew. i am so fascinated!!! i love them so bloody much. but alas we tend to only meet up ONCE a year. (this year's special cause we're all turning 21!)
si steph goh i will send ice cubes up your skirt in due time! i hold fast to revenge! LOL. but i still love si ni HEEE. :D
my body is aching from waist down. tomorrow i will wake up paralysed; bed-ridden..


lazed in bed the whole sunday with ryan. bliss! (:

there's something wrong with my shin... grumbles...

it's lovely isn't it? it's been such a long time since we last sat down to have a slow quiet dinner.
it's really been a terribly long time since we sat down for dinner together.
all smiles and laughter. no little disputes or unconsiderate remarks at each other.
Just you and i, and no one else.
Just you and i, without the tv running as we eat.
Just you, and i.


today has been the loveliest day in a very very long time. it's times like this i remember why we got together.

my two most favourite clowns!

4.03am... time to go to sleep so that i'll wake up in time to open the door for ryan ng tmr morning!





laa dee daa dooo laaa laa laaaaaaaaaaaa.......
i'm stealing him from ilovegambling granny.
*glee*

once every chinese new year, i wish there was a certain drug which would put me to sleep for 3 whole days. it's the time when i'm left with absolutely nothing to do, and no one to go out with because everyone else is busy doing visitations.


except me! all because i have a terribly small family..or rather because my mum is too anal to pay a visit to her relatives/cousins/friends/blahblahblah ONCE a year.
worst still, ryan ng will be glued to his beloved ilovegambling grandma for 3 whole days. tsk tsk.

my attempt at pasta making faired not too bad today - or so says my guinea pig; ng chongming.


fusilli with mushrooms and chicken hot dog, drowned in cream sauce!



it's simple, really.
and very economical too. *chomps*

and of cause i cannot forget the new addition to the family. yet another cute furry creature.... *headache*

thank you all my loves and lovelies for the birthday wishes and greetings. chongming, shihan, gillian, elainey, apple, weili, stephie poh, vivis, weishanie, eun, quin, ezdi, celest, damai, nad, ade, xiaotao, paMEINUla, ongbuggy, lishi, +wen, tianghway, keatwee, xinying, jiawen, huiyee, doris, jessie, bin, chailee, guangrong, tianxin, siupz, teong ge, bryan, liu de lan, yongxian, stan, qiuwen, daniel, joleen, minghann, minyang, yang, and of cause family.


i had a smashing time on the sunday the 22nd as well. hugs shihan + gillian. hugs chongming even more! shall let the pictures do the talking.

we can always trust eunice to provide us with things like these.......





ROFL.

*take down christmas tree
*bathe guinea pigs
*go holland v to buy clothes for guinea pigs
*shop for tongue studs
*return library books
*giant
*dig out deep fryer from wherever it is
*buy foundation
*go to missha
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. so many things to do.

listerine and mash potatoes have become my new best friends.
swimming on hiatus, which makes me depressed and VERY VERY VERY kong sian aka free aka jia ba ah nee eng.

i pierced my tongue together with apple this afternoon. HEE! *big smiles*
-sticks tongue out at everyone-
i love it!
thanks queen mo for accompanying me while i pierced my tongue. :D


wormy's such a sport. he doesn't like piercings but he allowed me to get mine anyway. mega hugs. thanks for not "plucking [my] tongue out."

our love has surpassed sweet nothings.




Chongming says:
call me la
Chongming says:
i wanna kunzzzzzz
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
DAN la
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
i need to wee wee first
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
=p
Chongming says:
kin laaaaa
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
wah lan eh
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
le eh impatient ley
Chongming says:
simi dai ji
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
par tou tia la
Chongming says:
huh
bless the girl who sheltered me home. MUACKS! says:
huh simi!

the more i think about my 21st, the more i dread the day coming. there's this bugging feeling inside telling me that all i want is a quiet dinner instead.


okayyyy i should be drowned.
maybe.

went shopping in town with baby today and saw this sweater from fcuk which i absolutely love.
oh.
my.
god.
i have to get it. mummieeeee daddieeeeee plssssssssssssss!!!!!

i love baby cause he comes all the way down to town just to hug me for half an hour before he rushes off to meet his friends.
all because i messaged to say i was freezing in the shop.


such a sweetie. i love.

i miss my dearest shihan, and i mean it in the most endearing way.
it just struck me that i wouldn't be seeing her tomorrow, or tuesday. that makes 3 consecutive days, the longest i'll have been seperated from her since september 2005.
oh what misery... just one day feels like eternity. and no, i am not exaggerating. maybe it's the gloomy weather.. maybe it's the withdrawal symptoms from being away from the pool. boo hoo hoo.
*wails*




now tell me what am i to do when you fly away?

is there a word for swimming too much?
maybe like, "swimeroxic".


today we had the pool all to ourselves. it set me grinning straightaway. puts a tingle of euphoria to know that nobody will be blocking your path, no other water currents disrupting your strokes, nobody swimming the breaths and cutting your laps and yes no kids kicking and splashing and being a nuisance.
:D please make it rain more if it leaves me with empty pools! i don't mind the cold freezing wind.


i asked baby what his type of girl is and he said chemistry, no other specific characteristics. while i on the other hand gave him a mega long list of what i want my guy to be.
i'm amazed at his simplicity.
love si ni!


two such very different people. we're standing on a ball, so far apart that when we turn around we're just facing each other.

*kisses*
HAHA. biathalon 2006 here we come!
the swim part's easy peasy -nudges gillian ang-
now for the greater hurdle. of cause i could walk more than half the journey, but that defeats the purpose.
3 months to gear up for it.
ooooo!

my shop will be featured in march'06 edition of FEMALE!


the year end's coming! and so is my parent's 25th wedding anniversary bbq. HAHA.. can't wait to feast my teeth into juicy chicken wings and cheese cuttlefish balls. yummy! i'm actually more interested in the food than celebrating their union of 25 years, really.


birthday's coming but my mum hasn't gone back to work. no dog for me. what a spoiler. i anticipated the existence of Ruffles for more than a year. ):

there's something about waking up early in the morning that makes me insanely happy and bright. my feet feel lighter, and there's a happy air all around. even the traffic lights turn green at the right moment.
of cause i could attain such thrill by setting my alarm at 6 in the morning, just to wake up to hit on the snooze button for a thrillion times, and eventually turn the alarm off and fall right back to sleep, and feel blatantly overjoyed to be able to.
:D

i like watching people doing silly things for other people. haha because it's funny. especially during the festive season and end of the year, most people start becoming queer. and they begin to lose the self restraint they've been having during the rest of the year. they say they're broke more than half the time and suddenly they have enough to spend to tell you there's a burnt hole in their pocket. (no mo, with no ref to u) and then you start to see people doing blatantly sweet things for others which make spectators feel all warm and fuzzy inside. and you feel so all-seeing and all-knowing because you know what is happening even before they do. mauhahahaha.. despite all the comicality, i am but one of them.


shuckssss. so can you see what i can't see???




jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way...

once again i was thinking about how nice it would be to have someone to just sit with you and keep you company, a person that you're with not because he's the wittiest person you know or something that you have the most fun with or that he's the best listener you can find. too many expectations are tied with these titles and each and every time he falls below standard, you feel disappointed at his failture to live up to what you believe him to be. moreover, all these qualities are replaceable, the moment you find someone else who's funnier, or livelier, or conversely quieter or more realistic. maybe a special someone is a person that you find the most natural to be with, not because he has any particular traits or characteristics, but because being with him is the way it has always been. when there is no need for spoken words as they are but talismans to ward off the silence. when you are comforted just by that person's presence and the recognition of the fact that you are not alone.


and then a sudden revelation hit me. maybe i should stop judging and expecting and under-rating.


ilu.

morbid thoughts consume the mind leaving me in the state of nothingness.
my sanity is in question.

i was listening to class95 while walking to the pool today.
a ghost walks into a bar, goes over to the bar and tells the bartender:
"i'd like some whiskey."
the bartender turns to him and says:
"i'm sorry, but we don't serve spirits over here."
wah laus. super lame.


i'm sitting in my cosy room drinking warm porridge made by my mum. mmmm... i feel loved today. :D

while others dressed up with painted faces, costumes, music, dance and booze, us four decided to go cycling. woohooooooooo.

we cycled from east coast to changi village for nasi lemak and trans viewage then back to east coast again. halfway through there was a thunder storm and ooooomg it was freezing with the rain hitting against my skin and the breeze blowing against me. BOOO HOOOOOO.

pit stop at the toilet near safra resort chalets to dry ourselves out. hand dryers come in handy on occasions like this! (: then it was a power ride all the way down to mac's at the other end of east coast park cause we didn't wanna get caught in the next shower.

almost 6 hours of cycling. my thighs and knees and calves are aching like crazy, not to mention my ass. i can barely walk OR sit. this is goood work out i say.

today i went to arab st. for some arab food at cafe le claire (or something like that). i tried something new called sheesha. it's fumes with flavour. i particularly liked the grape sheesha! yay. but too much of it makes the throat feel a lil dry.
hmmm. so many things in singapore which i haven't gone to discover. ):
i want to travel around the world.

i'm eating ice cream at 3 am in the morning..totally inappropriate, but these days, where girls wear knee high boots in 32degree celcius tropical singapore, what's eating icecream in the middle of the night?
chongming is gonna be away for a month. we spent the past three days together and the past three days must've been the best days of my life. (: no doubt about it.

days have been gray.
(the following passage is gonna be in rotton language)
quarrel until vomit blood. cry until wanna die. drink until puke like mad. don't even know why we're still together!!?! no money to shop. no money for new clothes. no money for good food. kns.
(end of totally rotton language)
swimming rocks at keeping a mind sane. and talking to very gossipy lifeguards too. :D

we brought snuffles out to play today! she's a happy girl now.

drown me in water, throw me against a wall and give me a good hard knock all around. i won't feel a thing!
when your boyfriend falls asleep on you while you're crying away, you're strong enough for anything..anything at all.
and as if once is not enough, he does it twice in three days.
totally awesome.


where have all the good days gone?
have i been blinded that i only see the bad?

all's fine and dandy now. thanks for all the hugs and love. HEE.

we broke up.
packed all the stuff he gave to me into a huge bag and returned it all back to him.
my head's spinning and spinning.
i don't feel like talking to anyone.


damai dearest sorry i couldn't make it for your chalet. happy birthday! (:


shall let slumberland wipe away these painful tears. sleep is the best remedy. see, only the sleepless worry and cry.

i went to the hairdresser's today to snip off an inch and a half of my hair. damn those split ends and dried hair. the bottom half of my hair's still very damaged.. it goes all the way up to like 3/4s of my hair. hmphhffff. hair bleaching is the number one hair killer i say.


it's shocking how two people can be so happy and loving at one moment, and full of hatred the very next. and the best way to avoid it all? not to commit.
i hope i'll never experience such a thing. shakes head.

you think your past week has been wonderful. you have no worries, no qualms about anything. you spent every possible second with your boy, and he meets you everytime he has a chance to. you do things together, go out together, watch endless dvds until you both fall asleep. you think nothing can get better than this. you think that your failing relationship is actually going to get better. you actually start to love him again.


and then at the end of it when you ask him out to keep you company for a little while, he'd rather stay home to do his stuff, and stay home cause he thinks his parents would be angry if he's missing all the time. that gets you kinda upset, but it's okay, you'll whine a little and get over it. and then he says the most hurting words you can ever imagine: "do you know what's enough?"

oh man my eyes hurt like crazy. they feel so dry and sore, i doubt i'd be able to wear my lenses tomorrow. will have to put on my big cbunky spectacles to work. eeeewwww.
just came back from supper (technically speaking marcus' supper) with eun and marcus. it's interesting to hear a guy's point of view. and wow he has his own bike. hmphhf. i want my own transport too.
dinner at the rice table with the mjdds people at suntec last night to celebrate neo's birthday. was kinda pleasant to see all the old faces again. i do admit i was bored at times cause i couldn't quite catch what they were saying. pouts. but i had a great time anyway. as usual we didn't take any photos again.
arghhhhh i wanna blog about last week's events but i shall continue another day. nods nods.

it amazes me how i can feel more appreciated by someone who's a thousand kilometres away as compared to someone who lives ten minutes away from me. i really wish he were here by my side, instead of being so far away. and it doesn't help when one text message costs 60 cents.




silly memories stuck in my head to help me pass my day by..."tomatensaus!". "spleetog!", "ik ben glory!"
(: giggles. come back metal mouth techno richie.

two consecutive nights of alcohol is giving my head a hard time. tonight was especially wonderful. but all these will end on tuesday. then, you'll be gone.

this entry is dedicated to mersai once again. quote unquote mersai: go blog go blog!
can't seem to get to sleep so i'm going to work with pooofy eyes. so much for laughing at mersai's pathetic sleeping time left. BOOOOOO.
supper at lau pa sat with pretty quin pretty danny and horrible mersai (muahahaha) last night. me thinks all food tastes good at night. perhaps tastebuds taste a little more after the sun sets and the moon's high up in the sky, right above our heads.
yesterday i learnt that cars can dance to music too! right left right left right left. heh. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. more car rides at night! thanks!


mersai's last day working at treetops. i'll miss her (SOMETIMES, which is very seldom). HAA HAA okay i shall stop being mean, afterall she's gonna help me take apron and top from the linen room. THANKS MERMAID! hugs.

i just chucked my last thirty into wormy's wallet. ): i'm broke. my bank account's balance of 85cents is an eyesore, like a baboon's ass. i secretly dream that someday my parents/boyfriend will strike the lottery. but then again, they don't even know what 4D is. TSK.


glory's get everythingyouwant plan:
Plan 1:
go out with a new guy every fortnight. and the first probable target would be little boy who says he'll pay for everything if i break up with wormy to be with him! xD


plan 2:
split my room into half and rent it out.


plan 3.
go out with a new guy every fortnight.


plan 4:
go out with a new guy every fortnight.


as you can see, i don't have any bright ideas.
Zzzzzzz.

time apart has done us good. will always remember to cherish what i have. dropping little praises here and there brings smiles lalala.


the past half a year together has been wonderful.





thank you for all the love you bring to me.




dinner at holland v with the usual suspects. it was hilarious looking at the monkey and the fat bastard constantly insulting each other. stan came much later and i amused myself by caressing his bald head. the five of us ate from swensens to spizza to tcc. goodness gracious me. *pokes me fat tummy*
what a weird way to spend my 6th month with wormy. but more company makes better conversation so no harm really.


absent myself from milady and treetops for the past week to rest at home. had to pamper my tired tired body. to all my lovelies: i miss you all. tuesday night shall be for you you you and you. wheeeeee.

celest:
thanks my dear. *massages your tired arms and legs*

it feels quite good to be single albeit abit boring and lonely at times but with some odd distractions it's alright. elainey lainey came down to acc me. i love elaine laine. you know just exactly how i feel MUAHs. with reference to the first sentence, don't be alarmed. i have not broken up..i've just decided to erms take a break.


sending hugs to quin quin quin my dear quin.

let's see. i shall blog abitss.
-basically quarrels with wormy agains but it's okay i'll get over it soon enough.
-my princess dropped by at milady to gimme hugs and to slam me in the face, just like 4 years back. roar!
-a buncha brunei people came to shop in my shop today. wow they're cool la they even have a personal security guard escorting them.
-theft at hula and co. later at night where these two chao lao women stole 4 skirts and a bag and probed my pretty girl's eyes.
-caught mr and mrs smith at ps with brother, his girlfriend, and daniel.
i'm tired and i'm off to sleep agains. ta ta world.

specially for miss eunice since she's bored and says that i must blog more:

HELLOS PUFFY!!!!!
((:

stand up speak up bands available at MILADY.
retailing at SGD$25.
while stocks last.

http://www.nike.com/standupspeakup/en/intro.jsp?page=home

yays! i have yet another snuffed animal from my dearest.
hugggs. thank you!


so tired from work. but i shall just keep thinking about the money.


i'm watching andy lau on tv. how sad can my life get? *BAWLS*

am dead beat. thanks to some co-partner who doesn't do his darn job.
anyhoos...5 hrs of sleep and i'm off to work again.

my love life - zero
my social life - zero

my gawd.

hohoho.
shop opening later this afternoon!!
talk about E-F-F-E-C-I-E-N-C-Y!


suffering from sleep defecit. getting home at 6am in the morning is not fun.
):

tired tired tired.
gotta do the crappish packing..
who wants to pack for me? yay.

been so busy i only got to pee TWICE since 7.53am friday to 4.37am, saturday.
endurance of the bladder. wow.


down with the exams.
other more important things to do.
TIRED TIRED TIRED!

approximately 12 more hrs to my last paper, and 15 more to my so-called freedom.
let me give you a picture of what i see in my head for tmr's paper.
@!$%^*$ fail! @!#@%&@# FAIL!!! FAIL!!!!! !#@%& FAIL FAIL!!!
i think it's pointless to continue reading. i give up.

the past week has been horrible. i took it easy and thought i could get by. not expecting to score not expecting to get even a 50. only a mere 34, the passing grade. i come out after every paper, feeling more miserable than before. each night i cried before my paper in the morning, even though i knew it wouldn't help me do any better. i got panic attacks where my mind totally blanked out on me. i don't think i'll ever feel this bad for the rest of my life. and now i've got one more paper to go on friday and i already know i'm fighting a losing battle. this sense of helplessness.. is far too much for me to bear.

thanks elainey eunice celestina air poo vivis xiangling wormy mummy daddy stupidfatkorkor stan and all the rest who've been there to just stand by me. hugs silky and funky for sitting on the chair next to me every night.

coming next sem, i shall retake my failed modules (soci, econs and ibm). this round's failure is classic.. much as i wish i'd scrape through by some miraculous means...... it's tit for tat. i put in zero effort and get zero in return.
i've got no one to blame and i admit defeat. i don't have super duper power memory, i don't have a truckload of four-leaf clovers and beams of sunshine and rainbows shining over my head.
no it's not that bad. even if all my friends are moving on to year two, and i'd be all alone, i'll pull through.


i'll go at my own pace....nothing's wrong with being slower.



need help with setting up shop this weekend! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Milady opening at Far East Plaza on the 23rd of may (tentatively). Plus sized clothing, shoes, and accessories. please drop by. located at #01-67, under the escalator, next to spectacle hut.

to the previously flattened worm. pppfffffffttttt!


when i'm pissed make me laugh by acting cute and looking stupid. you must do whatever i ask you to do.
when I cry you are by default, in the wrong, even when i'm in the wrong.
appease me with nice pink things or lollipops and beg to be forgiven.


never attempt to keep quiet. it will make me angrier.
speak up for yourself. otherwise i'd hurl vulgarities and call you a wimp.
during an argument, attempt to speak faster, in any language, so that i won't be able to catch up.


your rebuttal must not offend/insult me in any form or manner. otherwise you'll be in deeper shit.


say something that'll never cross my mind..catch me unaware and make me contradict myself.
when that happens you win, and i stop crying.


when will all these ever get rooted in your brain?


in short. you must act miserable when i cry. drama rama i say.

TRAMPLES ON WORMY and follows to drive a tree tonner over him.
i dowan to bother anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

econs is fucked. once again history repeats itself. of all the things to forgot, you forget the AXIS of your graphs. wheeeeeeee.


http://www.starbucks.com.sg/promo/p_light_coupon.htm
extra coffee!

i haven't slept for more than 3 hrs the past two days, in a frantic attempt to cramp a whole year's syllabus into my brain.
last minute studying kills. when will i ever learn???


econs paper to drive me mad in 2hrs time.
there's a curve on the open economy graph with the initials of my name! how cool is that.


i pay $2000 to go through torture in the company of 2000 other people, and freezing temperatures. so cold you can't keep your fingers from shivering.
momo claims the pee in her bladder turns to ice and she pees ice-cubes.
HA HA. tell me about it.
and today's a rainy day. COLDER TEMPERATURES! UOL rocks my socks. they teach us survivor skills during exam.
i'm sure it's gonna snow at the expo. hehe. snowflakes on your graphs man.
maybe i can build a snowman and get graded for that instead.

hahahahhaa.....i dreamt of all the girls... i dreamt of touch..i dreamt of jerseys shorts caps and rugby balls..... i dreamt of oks..


i also dreamt of elaine and elaine's mum.. i dreamt her mum turned on all the 10 stoves and 1 oven... so i went to quin, crying, cause i thought her mum was gonna kill the entire family... hahahah...and quin just went to turn off all the stoves. bleahhhh make me feel so dumb.


i dreamt i took a free shuttle bus from school to the train station with quin... but i ended up in chongming's hostel cause i left my wallet in sch and quin didn't have enough to lend me...
and while i was at his hostel room, i dreamt i found out that chongming was cheating on me.


whoa. too much for one night man.
and QUIN! so much of you for the night.. this is a signnnnn... a sign that i miss you. SOMETIMES. muahaha =p

revision for maths paper on wednesday isn't really working out. basically it's just glory doing question after question and getting so many wrong answers because of errors here there everywhere. SIGH! brings me back to amaths detention days. just that back then, i had company!!! now i'm all by myself in my cold cold room mugging. ): ok i mean trying hard to mug.


*hugs pink pig from wormy*


i also think my brain has limited capacity.
i don't quite remember how to do stats already.
and stats is ermmm on tuesday?
OH MAN...


//dear god if you can hear me please grant me a powerup brain for the next 13 days although i honestly don't deserve it since i've been so laid back for the entire sem. but pls be kind oright? sends you lots of kisses and big big hugs.


bleah. self deceit. poutsssssssss.

another post brought to you by:

FUNKY!!!
rightssssssss.

ah! 9 days.
i think it's REALLY time to get down to work.
problem is, i don't feel like it.
fkit.


so many things on my mind.
ruining my sleep!
Arghhh.


i have a good mind to plug out all my comp switches tv switches game console switches telephone lines.
BUT.
my mind is far from good. it is faulty and hence i will not be doing so.
CHEYYYYY.

muahs! for the good time spent here!

out with the usuals today. coffeebean. drinks. and gossiping. love you steph and love you two fuckers. it was a solid three hours of laughter and entertainment. sending lots of kisses to steph bryan and stan. and thanks yaow koon giving us a ride to bojangles heh. longer cherry stalks next time ya.

((((((((((:

sweetheart i'm glad you made an effort to turn up for the outing with the bros. it was hard to put up that front when we were out with them.

i guess i really needed that two hour talk we had. i should've known better than to keep it to myself. exceeded capacity. bleahs. and it feels so much better to trash things out rather than keeping it inside of me for such a long time. my heart's so much lighter and i honestly feel so relieved now. thanks for your patience and your love.

suddenly feeling very very tired. i want a breakup.

checkup says all clear. but my mum insists it should be removed. boo hooo ):


my hair's damaged with hair dye, hair bleach, and chlorine from the swimming pool. the only probable difference between my hair and the hay that my guinea pigs chew on is probably the smell.
nah nah nah.


chomp chomp. i love my silky and funky. i feel bad that i'm buying a goldie this year end... am i betraying my guinea pigs???!!

talks with steph have always been wonderful...all the way from sec1 till now, 8 years later. the conversation just keeps going. love you to bits. always nothing something more to talk about sweetie.


and i realise after all these years, we've only taken one photo together. and that wasn't even a photo.. it was a neoprint. blaablooo. times like this, the evolution of digital cameras comes in handy.

hi all. i greet you with lots of can food in the background, and red in my hair.
streaks are out. say hi to patches.

yayyyyyyyyyy!!!! i cut my hair!
and now i've got rainbow hair.. okay not much of a rainbow but. red and golden and brown.. wheee

finally! a new blog skin.
abit too colorful. abit to cheery.
haaahaahaa..
wah lau ey.

haa. lied to chongming about going out with the touch girls at night and went out with another guy instead. the guy whom he hates. BIG MISTAKE. anyways the truth came out and he boiled inside like a pressure cooker.my god, it was hell. every word that came out from his mouth thereafter was filled with thorns and thistles.

but a little trip down to his place to pacify the angry heart and a bucket full of tears of regret proved useful. *claps hands* heheh guys..so easily softened by tears. but crying's like so loser ey... wth.

nfs-ed with the boyboy the entire sunday afternoon. he kept losing and i kept winning. won him hands down. competition level: ZERO. now who says guys are better at video games than girls are?

xie ting feng on tv yesterday night. wheeee. the whole world hates him but i'm still pretty much in love with him. hahaha. and the show made me think of those years back where cm bought chupa chups for me oh so often. *nudges my boy* WHERE HAVE ALL THE CHUPA CHUPS GONE?!??

coach carter with the girls at marina square and boy we must have created quite a scene in our mad dash to the cinema from city hall mrt station. then we made alot of noise in the bus, trying desperately to snap CLEAR photos while the bus was moving. siam kitchen saw many stories unfolding. aiya basically just damai's stories but HOHOHO. okayyyy to sum it all up we were basically very noisy everywhere. i think we could've been sued for noise pollution. WHEE.

gotta pump pump pump all the info into my head by this week. stats and maths into my little head and then stuff the whole chunk of econs notes down my throat next week. haaa. can somebody tell me how i'm gonna cramp one whole year's work in less than 2 weeks? i think i shld stop going out with cm for this month. his presence is an interuption to my studies.ELAINE LAINE!! MO MO!! i love you both with all me heart this month. so love me and teach me maths and stats and econs. heheh.

ahh. whoever says lying is easy, i'll kowtow to him. heh.

clear skies after the thunderstorm last night. hohoho. so soft hearted my darling boy is. MUAH!! i never meant to do those things to you...............

he's at my place playing need for speed underground with me. i keep winning and he keeps losing. there is no competition at all. none. zilch. hahaha.

oookie. i'm a happy girl. no not happy girl breastcream. eh no funny.

blahhhhh.

i'm lie free!!! or so i think.

toldhalfkepthalf.somethingsarebetterleftunknown.

so wrong but feels so right.

i should burn in a thousand hells.

coach carter with the girls today. awesome show. loved every bit of it. the rush to the movie theatre was madness. 6 girls running past everyone making plip plap sounds all over the place. and dinner time was filled with mad laughter. i bet the people around us wanted to tape our mouths up with transparent packing tape. MUAH love you girls.

happy birthday sweetie. hope you enjoyed urself lots and lots.

as a kid, i never had barbie dolls to play with.
at 20, i play with manequins which scare the wits out of me when i go to the toilet at night.


i am so bloody broke. fuckit.

oi eunice!

ERROR!! my life revolves around my two pweeg pweegs who are bigger than my twenty toes and fingers put together!!!

okay laaaa.. and, of late, HANDSOME BOY... shayanggg carpet!

am going to visit it again soon!!! muahahaha.

oh and i'm swimming thurs evening instead of friday.....

shayangggg carpet. muakekeke.

muahaa elaine came over today and tied a big blue flower over funky's head!
jurong point later with stupid wormy.. off to get more wheat grass for my guinea pigs, and oxbow cavy cuisine, which is finally in stock. ( :
guess what. i have five subjects to swallow and digest in three weeks... and i have barely started. muahkekeke..
sometimes i wonder when i will EVER learn to be prepared.
maybe never. hmmm!
god save america,
god save the king.
and god save me too!!!


saw the pretty pictures in ezdi's blog. everyone's looking good. and damai.. make uppp!!
wheeeee. how come i'm feel so free but i'm so busy. frowns.


bbq last saturday with the mjdds lot.
chicken wings, stingrays, marshmellows hotdogs and yeah you get my point, the usual bbq stuffies. all of which i couldn't eat coz i had no money to pay for it. not that they didn't offer but. heh!
bbq followed by MAHJONG later on at guangie's place. ooo! his room, refurnished with ikea goods for 300 bucks. now he's got a cosy corner and pretty orange lights. ikea rocks i tell you. and. mahjong is great. i love mahjong. i need mahjong ka khis.


sweetheartheart stayed over on friday and we played with the big bubbles and took so many photos. wheee!


cut my hair again and now it looks like a packet of dried hay stacked on top of my head. fuck.


too much incessant ranting. it's time to stop.

can i not go to the hospital pls?
but when i do can they please tell me it's nothing bad pls?
and if it's nothing bad can they pls tell me i don't need an op pls?
*bawls*

))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Funky sitting up, trying to be a little more human.





Funky! with a nice (actually not) purple ribbon.





Silky's long fur! after 15 minutes of intense combing...





and they're both very sleepy from posing for the camera.
hee! guinea pigs say good night!

been going in and out of far east nearly everyday. come saturday, we'll know if we clinched the deal. if they give the green light, i'll be plopping my fat ass at far east till the cows come home, only this time, i wouldn't be working for anyone. that thought alone makes things so much better.


chongming has 7 stitches on his chin and three chipped teeth. ho hum. i've got a bogay frankenstein as a boyfriend. frankengay! suits him perfectly, since he's a little gay anyway. what a silly boy.. fancy playing basketball and tripping over his friend's foot. careless careless careless! chipped teeth can certainly be patched.. but probably not a scarred chin. we'll just pray and hope that the scar will be a cool scar!
shayangggg worm baby.

it became from normal sleeping hours to dysfunctional sleeping hours. now it's totally haywire. i sleep on alternate days.
muahhahahahaah.


thank yous chongming for helping me build the guinea pig's cage and paying for half of it. wheee. -sends hugs-

hey girls.. i need your help.
if you know of any plus sized females within the age of 18 to 35, could u pretty please get them to do a simple survey for me?
the link's below...


http://freeonlinesurveys.com/rendersurvey.asp?id=83666


thank you very much!

hey girls
i need your help.
if you happen to know of any plus sized women between the age of 18 to 35, could you please get them to do this survey? thank you.

i've been playing with eraser shavings. rolling them all into one sticky clump and flattening it. it's disgusting i know. but it's probably the only fascinating thing that can be done at 5.20am in the morning.


i would like to buy ten different colors of play-doh. i love the smell of play-doh.


i would like to go for a swim at 7pm later today but i can't find anyone to swim with me. i need company in changing rooms at night. i hate the sound of dripping taps and showerheads. i hate the sound of running water. i'm afraid of murderers with knives and ghosts waiting to pounce on me as i turn at the corner.


i would like to take a glimpse at the year 2006 so that i wouldn't have to worry so much now.


i would like to go out with you cause i miss you a whole damn lot but we both know i can't.

i would like to go out with my baby and listen to him telling stories which i've heard a hundred times before while i sit quietly and don't say a thing.



i don't really feel like talking.


i would like to take time out from everyone and everything for a week. i'm tired and confused and boggled down by everything.


i think i'm going to stop playing with eraser shavings. my dad is up and awake and preparing for work...
and as usual, i'm still not asleep.

how could anyone so pretty be so handsome at the same time?

it's times like this i ask myself why i'm holding on. will tomorrow be worth the wait?


is it the dreams i have? the plans i've made which haven't been carried out, or am i simply hoping for a magical random bubble of splendous glitter to float past and pop over my head and make every single little thought, negative feeling, and insecurity go away?


so much heartache but all of it can be taken away just by a single hug. and then when you leave and i'm all alone, i feel like banging my head against the wall for not saying the things i wanted to say. and it all gets boggled up inside. and the feelings from the different events just jumble up inside. and now i can't even pin point anything.


but what am i complaining about? i seem happy enough. to others it's almost perfect. i talk about us like everything's absolutely wonderful. i make-believe that there can be nothing better than you. a splash of paint against a white wall may be seen as vandalism. yet i choose to see it as a piece of artwork.


i talk to you about you, me, us, and our future. but the actual future i see in my head? it's a blank.


and i know that tomorrow when i wake up, everything will go back to normal. everything will continue the way it has always been. absolutely perfect. love love, and more love.


when make-believe becomes reality, you don't really know what's real and what's not anymore.

i have been bitten by mysterious obnoxious insect. show no mercy to 6-legged creatures for you know not what they might do to you. be generous with the baygon, lest you end up like me.
species: annoynomous.
side effects: huge red lump with pus. (still growing)




failing eye-sight? can't see what's written?
let Pinky show you how to do it without the nerdy spectacles or flimsy blue tinted contact lenses...





"ahhhh..perfect!" she says.

i'm feeling so bloated.
enough of the junkies.
i need my parents back in singapore to cook me proper meals.
and to do the housework. i dowan to wash dishes mop the floor and scrub the toilet anymore. sob.


and so today i realised i haven't stepped into town since the thai express day. boo boo. i have no life.
hufflelump at cwp at 2.10pm! can't wait!


it's 2.34am!
i should start sleeping at more earthly hours.






DAMAI i'm free next saturday nods nods. (:

a few phrases to describe my past few days...




eat
eat
eat
eat
and eat.




*jiggles fats*

why can't i fall asleep even when i've got you lying by my side?
all i want is a proper 6 hour rest without a single thought lingering in my mind. without the wierd dreams and all.
i'm tired of waiting to be tired out before knocking out for a couple of hours and flipping around in bed drifting in and out of la la land.






i have a new found hobby - housework
keeps you busy all day long...
wheeee.

i lost my pencil in school last thursday.
and today,
baby bought me a nice purple pencil! YAY!

come to think of it, being sick isn't actually that bad. good for the tired mind. heh.

notice!
The monorail will cease operations from 16 March 2005. Please inform all Sentosa guests and island partners that the last monorail service will operat as per normal on 15 March 2005 from 10pm to 10.30pm

i'm feeling blueeeeeee

you know like,

blue blue sky blue kinda blue

rainbow blue blue

sea blue blue

my blue NB shorts blue

my blue pen blue

blue-black blue

blue's clues blue.

blue lar. blue.

i hate this kind of emotional spasms.

i feel like someone's stress ball...being squeezed at released at intervals..

to the one above, stop playing around with me.

monday// do not despise jp even though it's a neighbourhood shopping mall. jp rocks like a rocking chair. heh. met fadz, steph + bf, huiyee + chinaman bf, tianghway + bf, Jia + ed, at jp when i was with apple and cm. woohoo!

and white noise is boring. ZzZzz. waste of my money.

many movies which i wanna catch are coming out!

4th March: Series of Unfortunate Events

10th march: Hufflelump and Boogeyman

17th March: spongebob squarepants

oh my. gonn go broke!

i like home-cooked food.
cm likes packet food.
my mum cooked dinner.
cm came to eat.
now cm knows why i like home-cooked food.
haha.
okay that was tuesday.

today, eun and elaine popped by for more constantine! the more i watch it the more i think that man is so bloody hot. haha i miss the swimming days. elaine please come back to jurong to swim.. abandon clementi! hohooh.

celest why you never come with them sob sob sob. my dear golden haired monkey i haven't seen you for so long! ):

tomorrow i'll be going jp with apple to study. haa. big joke big joke. studying is like Zzzz

okay. can someone tell me how to come up with 100K? i'm absolutely clueless.

and soci sucks like crap la. making me dingey dongeys. bing bong!

going to throw myself out of the window! wheee!