i know i'm stupid.
i know i should just pack up and go. to leave,
and let you learn the hard way.
i know you'll feel the pain if i choose to leave
and i also know, that you know, that you only have yourself to blame.
you tell me "stay", but your actions are screaming "GO AWAY!"


i feel damn stupid. i think i'm damn stupid. i know for the very fact that i AM stupid.
i know i could be strong. i know i could just say "you deserve this fucking bastard", turn my heart cold and leave. i know i can rely on all the people around me who love me to break my fall and to climb back up again.


i was searching for a reason to why i should stay...
initially when it was all anger and hatred and hurt and confusion, i couldn't find a reason to stay. but when i pushed those emotions away, and thought about the past, i remembered all that you've done for me. and above all that, you were there for me when i needed you. how could i leave? sigh.


//how could an angel break my heart?