i love baby cause he comes all the way down to town just to hug me for half an hour before he rushes off to meet his friends.
all because i messaged to say i was freezing in the shop.


such a sweetie. i love.

i miss my dearest shihan, and i mean it in the most endearing way.
it just struck me that i wouldn't be seeing her tomorrow, or tuesday. that makes 3 consecutive days, the longest i'll have been seperated from her since september 2005.
oh what misery... just one day feels like eternity. and no, i am not exaggerating. maybe it's the gloomy weather.. maybe it's the withdrawal symptoms from being away from the pool. boo hoo hoo.
*wails*




now tell me what am i to do when you fly away?

is there a word for swimming too much?
maybe like, "swimeroxic".


today we had the pool all to ourselves. it set me grinning straightaway. puts a tingle of euphoria to know that nobody will be blocking your path, no other water currents disrupting your strokes, nobody swimming the breaths and cutting your laps and yes no kids kicking and splashing and being a nuisance.
:D please make it rain more if it leaves me with empty pools! i don't mind the cold freezing wind.


i asked baby what his type of girl is and he said chemistry, no other specific characteristics. while i on the other hand gave him a mega long list of what i want my guy to be.
i'm amazed at his simplicity.
love si ni!


two such very different people. we're standing on a ball, so far apart that when we turn around we're just facing each other.

*kisses*
HAHA. biathalon 2006 here we come!
the swim part's easy peasy -nudges gillian ang-
now for the greater hurdle. of cause i could walk more than half the journey, but that defeats the purpose.
3 months to gear up for it.
ooooo!

my shop will be featured in march'06 edition of FEMALE!


the year end's coming! and so is my parent's 25th wedding anniversary bbq. HAHA.. can't wait to feast my teeth into juicy chicken wings and cheese cuttlefish balls. yummy! i'm actually more interested in the food than celebrating their union of 25 years, really.


birthday's coming but my mum hasn't gone back to work. no dog for me. what a spoiler. i anticipated the existence of Ruffles for more than a year. ):

there's something about waking up early in the morning that makes me insanely happy and bright. my feet feel lighter, and there's a happy air all around. even the traffic lights turn green at the right moment.
of cause i could attain such thrill by setting my alarm at 6 in the morning, just to wake up to hit on the snooze button for a thrillion times, and eventually turn the alarm off and fall right back to sleep, and feel blatantly overjoyed to be able to.
:D

i like watching people doing silly things for other people. haha because it's funny. especially during the festive season and end of the year, most people start becoming queer. and they begin to lose the self restraint they've been having during the rest of the year. they say they're broke more than half the time and suddenly they have enough to spend to tell you there's a burnt hole in their pocket. (no mo, with no ref to u) and then you start to see people doing blatantly sweet things for others which make spectators feel all warm and fuzzy inside. and you feel so all-seeing and all-knowing because you know what is happening even before they do. mauhahahaha.. despite all the comicality, i am but one of them.


shuckssss. so can you see what i can't see???




jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way...

once again i was thinking about how nice it would be to have someone to just sit with you and keep you company, a person that you're with not because he's the wittiest person you know or something that you have the most fun with or that he's the best listener you can find. too many expectations are tied with these titles and each and every time he falls below standard, you feel disappointed at his failture to live up to what you believe him to be. moreover, all these qualities are replaceable, the moment you find someone else who's funnier, or livelier, or conversely quieter or more realistic. maybe a special someone is a person that you find the most natural to be with, not because he has any particular traits or characteristics, but because being with him is the way it has always been. when there is no need for spoken words as they are but talismans to ward off the silence. when you are comforted just by that person's presence and the recognition of the fact that you are not alone.


and then a sudden revelation hit me. maybe i should stop judging and expecting and under-rating.


ilu.

morbid thoughts consume the mind leaving me in the state of nothingness.
my sanity is in question.

i was listening to class95 while walking to the pool today.
a ghost walks into a bar, goes over to the bar and tells the bartender:
"i'd like some whiskey."
the bartender turns to him and says:
"i'm sorry, but we don't serve spirits over here."
wah laus. super lame.


i'm sitting in my cosy room drinking warm porridge made by my mum. mmmm... i feel loved today. :D

while others dressed up with painted faces, costumes, music, dance and booze, us four decided to go cycling. woohooooooooo.

we cycled from east coast to changi village for nasi lemak and trans viewage then back to east coast again. halfway through there was a thunder storm and ooooomg it was freezing with the rain hitting against my skin and the breeze blowing against me. BOOO HOOOOOO.

pit stop at the toilet near safra resort chalets to dry ourselves out. hand dryers come in handy on occasions like this! (: then it was a power ride all the way down to mac's at the other end of east coast park cause we didn't wanna get caught in the next shower.

almost 6 hours of cycling. my thighs and knees and calves are aching like crazy, not to mention my ass. i can barely walk OR sit. this is goood work out i say.

today i went to arab st. for some arab food at cafe le claire (or something like that). i tried something new called sheesha. it's fumes with flavour. i particularly liked the grape sheesha! yay. but too much of it makes the throat feel a lil dry.
hmmm. so many things in singapore which i haven't gone to discover. ):
i want to travel around the world.

i'm eating ice cream at 3 am in the morning..totally inappropriate, but these days, where girls wear knee high boots in 32degree celcius tropical singapore, what's eating icecream in the middle of the night?
chongming is gonna be away for a month. we spent the past three days together and the past three days must've been the best days of my life. (: no doubt about it.

days have been gray.
(the following passage is gonna be in rotton language)
quarrel until vomit blood. cry until wanna die. drink until puke like mad. don't even know why we're still together!!?! no money to shop. no money for new clothes. no money for good food. kns.
(end of totally rotton language)
swimming rocks at keeping a mind sane. and talking to very gossipy lifeguards too. :D

we brought snuffles out to play today! she's a happy girl now.

drown me in water, throw me against a wall and give me a good hard knock all around. i won't feel a thing!
when your boyfriend falls asleep on you while you're crying away, you're strong enough for anything..anything at all.
and as if once is not enough, he does it twice in three days.
totally awesome.


where have all the good days gone?
have i been blinded that i only see the bad?

all's fine and dandy now. thanks for all the hugs and love. HEE.

we broke up.
packed all the stuff he gave to me into a huge bag and returned it all back to him.
my head's spinning and spinning.
i don't feel like talking to anyone.


damai dearest sorry i couldn't make it for your chalet. happy birthday! (:


shall let slumberland wipe away these painful tears. sleep is the best remedy. see, only the sleepless worry and cry.

i went to the hairdresser's today to snip off an inch and a half of my hair. damn those split ends and dried hair. the bottom half of my hair's still very damaged.. it goes all the way up to like 3/4s of my hair. hmphhffff. hair bleaching is the number one hair killer i say.


it's shocking how two people can be so happy and loving at one moment, and full of hatred the very next. and the best way to avoid it all? not to commit.
i hope i'll never experience such a thing. shakes head.