i am sick! but as always i'm going to self-medicate until everything goes away. so for the time being, it's a water parade and an OD on vitamin C tablets.

my body hurts. ouch.

strange.

it's so much harder to get by in the night.

i'm back home early today for a bonding session with my bed.

i love you bed,
now profess your undying love for me!

i fed my laptop with some crumbs.

oops!

it's not your day when...
-your internet takes 10minutes to load one page
-your printer prints baby blue and pink instead of black
-the copiers of photocopying shops in your estate are down
-your normally efficient optician tells you your contact lenses still aren't ready. there has been a problem on the supplier's side

i find it hard to believe that i will be caught so ill-prepared.

choices

you play with fire hoping that your swipe at the flame will be at that one spot where the flame won't bite and burn you.
why is it that people bother to consider the obviously wrong choice when the right one's staring at them in the face? is it human instinct to test waters and hope that by some chance they'll find an escape route?

hmm.

as blue as the ComfortDelgro taxi

do carbs make you blue, or does being blue make you eat carbs?
i cannot decipher the relationship.

i need a hugs and kisses meal, supersize
and 12,000 calories worth of cuddles.

my optician hates me. she won't sell sell me contact lenses cause apparently i can go blind if my cornea doesn't recover. i've been exiled to the land of car washing manual laborers cause i wrecked (okay it was just a dent and a gazillion scratches) the car. i am the epitome of stupidity.

i think the world hates me.


but mostly i think i'm letting my selfpity eat me up whole.
ARGH.

another order of hugs and kisses, upsize and a side order of ice-cream please.

dear people. if you feel that something bad's going to happen on that day, trust your instincts because they're probably right. don't even attempt to step out of the house for 15 min or risk ending up like me who decided to go ahead with what i was doing and regretting.

these days the boy has a fetish for filling me up with booze when we've nothing to do at home. yesterday along with all that, he made me sing songs for bugs bunny, barney and donald duck. 2 hours later i ended up hugging the toilet bowl, puking my guts out. but i figure it's a good thing, considering how much i ate for dinner.
(sharkie fins, pineappu rice, fresh prawns, sesame paste prawns, cereal prawns, steamed fish, sweet&sour fish, sweet&sour pork, sliced fish, tom yam soup, cheeken wings, prawn omelette, some other cheeken, honeydew sago, almond longan sea coconuttie)
so clearing everything from my stomach is a good thing no????

should i also mention that i went to kushinbo on friday affty with MAMAyaaaa and ate like a cow. MOOOOOOOOO. the salmon sashimi was heavenly and the chawanmushi was amazing cause it melts in your mouth. $20.90 for 60 minutes lunchtime crunch and if you're slow like me, pay an extra $6 more and you can take your time till 3pm.

and on thursday i went for korean bbq buffet at excelsior's with ryan and alot of people i don't know to bid farewell to someone who's leaving for a 4-month exchange, whom i also don't know.

so people if u bump into me and you think my face's expanded, you now know why k. i have people around me who're evil! they don't give me money too buy PRETTY HEELS but they don't mind paying for my meals.

by the way, why is bugs bunny BUGS bunny. does he eat bugs?????
and why is minnie mouse minnie? she's not mini at all. by far i think she's the biggest mouse aside from mickey mouse.

i need sponsors for two pairs of heels.
PLS!?!?!?!?!??
will do anything for shoes. *sniffles*

dearest ryan, whilst i spent my day waiting for you over and over and over again, this was what happened:

the past 24 hours has been the most random day for months in the running.

happy hours make me really happy. i sat alone at balas waiting for the redness to wear off but to no avail. hence i weaved in and out the shops of suntec and city link, red-faced and giggly. with every passing mirror i was even more convinced that others would presume i was sunburnt. and so i marched on, refusing to head home to face 4 walls again despite being alone.

i managed to dissaude myself from buying anything i fancied. coming from the queen of impulse buys, it is a feat. (the money you gave me is still intact! every single cent of it! aren't you proud!!!!)

i dozed off while standing on the travelator and almost ended up on my face if my hands weren't quick to grab to railings. twice in less than a minute.

i had a conversation with the couple sitting opposite me on the train about tired legs and taking naps on buses and trains.

afterwhich i headed to coffeebean@vivo to wait for the boy whereby my phone died on me and i had to borrow a fellow human bean's phone to send a text msg, leading to yet another random conversation.

crazy.
mama told me as a kid never to talk to strangers.
you know what they say, about women having to speak 20, 000 words a day? i think i was suffering from a lack of interaction from walking around on my own the whole day.

hence i have come to a decision - the job hunt shall begin!

seals are so cute!

i'm blogging because my baby says i haven't been doing so.

today my baby made me a cup of neslo (nescafe + milo) after my morning shower. it tasted fantastic! chocolatey taste from the milo powder and the much needed caffeaine dose.

ok the end.
i love ryanie.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

I love thee, I love but thee
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold
And the stars grow old.
~ by William Shakespeare ~

wedding bells

saturday was jasmine's wedding solemnisation at raffles town club. it was a sweet and simple affair with friends and relatives. the groom was so jumpy and nervous i swear if my contact lenses weren't blurry i would probably see beads of cold sweat all over his forehead.
twas great to be able to share their joy at this once in a lifetime event. oh i'm simply love weddings. all the love going around...just makes my heart melt!


MRS. YEO



love the two shots above. the tenderness and love, all captured by a snapshot.




finally, MR AND MRS YEO!


the ring pillow is so adorable! two bears embracing atop a satin cushion.


bride, groom, and family members.


jasmine and i! i'm so happy for her! she's my role model for living a good life. always simple, contented, but not complacent.


szeying! from the next door class in secondary school


my favourite boy. hugs kisses hugs kisses hugs kisses hugs. XOXO!


yap!


my twinnie vase


my favourite shot of the day! ryan in the far corner, yap and twinnie. the shot's of a reflection of us in the mirrored table.

and since monday i've been cooped up at home with mischa barton and the rest of the cast from the O.C (i'm midway thru season 3, i still don't like it), and my fringe, or rather the lack of it. GAH.

sushi treat from the mothership

the thing about going out with parents is it's always allexpensespaid. so sushi lunch last monday with my mum was very good to the pocket. MY pocket. i fathom such days aren't gonna last much longer...the gear's gonna be put to reverse in time to come. BOOOOOOOO.


my brother, still obviously half-asleep at 2pm in the afternoon. boys can fall asleep EVERYWHERE. i don't get it.




ooooo salmon sashimi. i'm always ready to cheat on ryanie and have an affair with salmon sashimi. looking at the picture just makes me hungry. GEE.




notice my brother was STILL sleepy after he was done with the food.

from east coast to west coast


blading with the girls last sunday.






some serious kite-flying business. 4 kites manouvuered with two strings making swooshing sounds as they dived and swerved. way cool!

post-blading

satay, wings, and overpriced orh luat with quin






damai was supposedly THINKING

ryanie time!

it was the 3rd time i headed to ikea within a week. i brought along ryan my carrier man to lug things home for me. BIG KISS. i'd still be stuck in ikea with my knickknacks otherwise.




ryan being patriotic... came up with his own esplanade.
who buys these stuff? actually we saw alot of it in the trolley's and shopping bags at the check-out. ah, one man's meat its another man's poison.

i blog pictures just in case my comp crashes


alyssa's playmate at the playground. one was blowing bubbles the other was catching bubbles. kids make life look so simple. life should be so simple. ((((: i'm missing my niece already.

unfateful miscalculation has resulted in a fringe that's ONE INCH ABOVE MY EYEBROWS. so my dearest friends, be gracious when you see me. i don't always look like an idiot. please try to be discreet in laughter.

sigh. i'm the new comic.

the beloved has offered to buy me a nice white cap so we'll be heading to town after jasmine's wedding. hairband donations are welcomed.

where will you be 5 years from now?



over our milk tea and ice blended lychee, bestie and i pondered over the subject of where we'll all be 5 years from now. i told her i'd probably be getting my botox jab for sagging eyelids and cheeks. we wondered about who we'd still be in contact with, who would be missing and untraceable and laughed at those who have already gone missing.

on a more serious note, 5 years from now, i hope to find happiness and contentment, where even bad days won't get me down. i've been working on it this year and i think i'm getting there. i keep text messages from loverboy in my handphone inbox and they keep me smiling when i'm feeling a little out of sorts.

i think i've found the answer to my love for ryan lion. he keeps me balanced. he's made me a better person.

2003

i have no idea what we were up to.
my entire time in jc was spent in the toilet, catching up with sleep in the sick bay, on the field, skipping lessons, running for lit paper 8 tutorials in fear and thinking of what to do during our next break.
i was a horrible student. but i had my share of fun.

lions go ROAR!

i had a most awesome weekend with ryanie with a late night movie (WANTED), our fish soup routine and a walk along the mt. faber trail...followed by a sushi dinner with my 2 plates of salmon sashimimimimimi no doubt, before ending the night with sinfully chocolatey icecreamy.

the archs in the late afternoon.

the henderson waves bridge and a ball of orange flowers near the jewelbox.

here's where ryan surrendered to his aching knees and we sat watching the cable cars go by. whee.

byebye. haha! i have nice legs here... but ONLY here. why!!!!!!!! )))):

and when i was awakened by his morning kiss before he headed home, i couldn't bare to let him go. i just wanted to lie in bed and hold his hand. there's nothing that makes me feel better than knowing that i can do anything i want, dress in my most grubby clothes, snatching the tub of ben&jerry's from him and insisting that it's ALL MINE and none's his, and still be loved by him the very most-est.

i love you the very most-est too. (((:

we're going to the zoo zoo zoo, how bout you you you?



got dragged to the zoo in my intoxicated stupor by my mum on thursday. i convinced myself that staying at home was no way to get rid of my exam butt. so there i was in my shorts and slippers, pushing a 12kg baby in her pram all around the zoo. i was thankfully spared from the stench of the hippos due to my blocked nose.

my trip to the zoo was exciting. sitting on the bench, watching my niece terrorize two ang-moh kids in the play pool at the children's world, bird shit droppings missed me by an inch.
on the walk out of the zoo, monkey pee dribbled down just in front of us.
and as i was passing thru the exit, i picked up a dollar!!!

should have bought 4D.

MoPasia

bestie's very first exhibition at the Night&Day gallery on the 25th of june. congratulations miss chen! your photos were exceedingly nice, definitely worth risking my life and bones to climb up and down 8 flights of narrow stairs in 4inch heels.

where's Wally Stephanie?

seeing that my blog is on an all time photo low, i see a need to inject some a lot of photos.

the UNusual suspects at good-ol beanie on the 16th (of june) before dabenee flew off to USofA for the next 3 months. ))):

and we tried to act cute...

verdict: YUCKS. it's not in the capacity of a 23-year old to act cute and look cute.

i hate being sick.

)):

with a pair of scissors, thread and needle, and a tube of uhu glue, i managed to transform the clothes in the deep of my wardrobe into something else. imagine what i could do with a sewing machine!

i never fail to surprise myself.

+ one more month!

and we spent it watching Cinderella, my favouritest disney cartoon of all time.
((((((((((((:

few things i've learnt over the weekend
1. youth is an asset
2. moisturize, moisturize, moisturize
3. drink lots of water!
4. sleep is vital
5. purple is not a flattering color - proven by 6 individuals of different skin tones

i must stay forever young.
forever and ever.

post-exam activities



first and foremost, the trademark bundling of notes and chucking them out of way and out of sight. GOOD BYE! you have served me well. :D

it's my TP (traffic police) test this coming wednesday. i'm keeping my fingers crossed and hopefully this time round won't be as nerve-wrecking as before. no more retarded and costly actions coming from me! and maybe future photos will see me on the driver's seat instead of the passenger's seat. but then again, hard to say considering i haven't bothered to go down for any revision sessions.
OH WELL, i still prefer being chauffuered around. and i certainly do not want to replace my brother as the family "ahmad".

post-exam plans have been disrupted by uneventful situations. but the loss of a loved one is painful to bear and being there for a close friend is definitely more important than my frivolous affairs. i shudder at the reminder that life is so frail.

two weddings and a funeral. that's june for me.

caught the flu bug.
)):

i've been tossing and turning in bed for 5 hours and i still can't get to sleep.
would have been more productive if i stayed up to revise wouldn't it?
what did i do on the day before my paper?
i did 4 questions.
well done laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. TSK.

status 0942hrs: not asleep

i keep having conversations with myself inside my head. i blame it on the lack of communication with people for the whole of sunday. i spoke to my dad for 5 minutes, few sentences to the SIL, tried negotiating for a free second-hand lappie from my brother, and "don't talk to me don't talk to me" to my mum.
then at 8.39am, monday, i called ryan and spoke to him for 21minutes.

they say women speak an average of 20,000 words a day.
my word count is running a deficit of 15, 000 at the very least.

now that explains why i can't sleep!

occupation: student
30 more hours to happy student to happy unemployed citizen.

HAHAHAHAHA.
for the next 30 hours, i'm going to:
-7am-1pm: sleep
-1pm-2pm: bathe & eat
that leaves me with 23 hours...

minus
another 2 to 3 hours where i'll fall asleep on top of my notes...
and another few more hours to munch on random things...
another 6 hours to sleep (for monday night)
an hour to bathe + dry hair + dress up
1.5 hours to get to expo
3 hours for paper

leaves me with
<9 hours to revise HAHAHAHHA and try not to get distracted by 1001 other things which seem so fun right now.


WHEEEEE!
i'm so excited i can't sleep.

ryan ryan kodomo lion.....where areeee youuuuuuu?? hehehehehehehehehe.
MEGA BIG HUGS.

hi bimbo
i can't wait for tuesday!
i will be a happy student until 3rd june 2008; 1300hours.

and wednesday is going to be FANTASTIC.
i'm going to bathe for 3 hours, wax my body from head to toe, paint my nails a pretty bimbo pink, watch 101 chick flicks and eat a tub of ben&jerry's.






this is not me talking.

life is grand. and it's just the beginning.

:D

one more paper to go and yay!

over the weekend i squeezed in a night of fun with the girls, a whole day out with ryan the lion, another day of hugs and cuddles, and tonnes and tonnes of sleep. As to being a couch potato, i cleared episodes of desperate housewives, grey's, house, gossip girl, one tree hill, SATC, and one season of greek, love actually (for the thirteenth time), music and lyrics, must love dogs, p.s i love you, and harold and kumar.

hahahahahaa! can't wait for it to be over.
i can smell the sweet sweet smell of 3rd june.

omg it's all starting to cave in on me. glowy at her best - studying for a module 2 days before the paper. i have unstrategically placed myself in fate's hands AGAIN. my heart is in my throat.
i need my "dormicum", my vitamin-BEAN complex, my fatty kodomo garlic lion, my bestnightfriend to battle anxiety part2, and alot of quick knowledge soaking action.

i'm so stressed i even started sticking post-its on my face to make myself laugh.
i see the crosses accumulating on my MAY-calendar and i'm secretly delighted even though it spells my forthcoming doom this thursday.

i will not crumble!!! no no no no no no no no nooooooooooooo....................
corporate f[uck]nance i kill youuuuu! (achmed style)

this whole exam thing is making me obese. i think i've eaten more in the past month than i have in the previous 11 months. today alone saw me shoving two polar chicken pies and a double cheese booger down my throat. my cheeks are mega inflated! i look like a goldfish!




maybe i shouldn't be so harsh on myself...actually the cheeks are quite cute ley..! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

three more hours!
my brain still feels abit empty.
oh me oh my.

i was in a dilemma on whether to buy or not to buy this certain top two weeks ago.
and today it just went on sale! i take it as a sign to buy it.

yayyyy.. more clothes more clothes!


hugs to all my friends having exams.
dabennee, bry, siong, quin, jasmine, may, xuemin, bestnightfriend, celest, waihong, pokkadoodle, leslie.
ok i have no more friends.
HAHAHA.

i keep brushing my teeth cause my new toothpaste tastes like mentos.
and the weather is so hot, i think God forgot to turn on the air conditioning.
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how random can i get.

aiya i forgot to eat my dinner.
HUNGRYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyone who sees this post before 12 midnight 9th may 2008,
pls sms me if you want to head out to grab a bite.

i just realised i'm VERY HUNGRY.

did i mention that i now sleep and wake at NORMAL hours?

i'm blogging at 9am.

HAHA.

my hair is damaged beyond redemption.
time to chop it.

a happy day, and then you pay;
and feel like shit the morning after

jurong west library

attempting to study under polar region temperatures cuts efficiency by 20%. factor in a lack of sleep (or rather no sleep) cuts efficiency by another 50%. so today was just slow slow slowwwww. decided to leave battlefield for home at 5pm.

shall wake up at 9pm to fight with polished weapons and thickened shields!

in case i die of anxiety before the 14th may,
friends, please bury ryan with me, dead or alive.
i need some good company even in my coffin.

dyingdyingdyingdyingdyingdyingdyingdyingdying.
did i say i was dying? ya i think i did.
DIE!!!! DIE!!!!! DIE!!!!!!!!!

fee fi fo fum. i smell the blood of a SG girl.
i'll grind her bones to make my broth.

waa ok i shall not hold out my couldnt-care-less attitude and start revision. i'm scared already! (ok lor laugh at me sob) it's just another 30 odd days to go. i think i'd rather the torture of discipline than the pang of regret.
2 weeks more to first 2 papers, not too late, is it? i shall remain confident that 2 weeks is sufficient to score fairly well and not be despaired and discouraged by the people who've been preparing for 2 months already. I BELIEVE IN GOOD LUCK and MY SPONGEY BRAIN. plus, God will take care of me, no?

the war has begunnnnnnnnnnn..............!
NUN AT WORK!
will be un-nun-nified on 3rd june.
and from now till then, i love everyone! ok???
glowy x 1million hugs and kisses. please distribute among yourselves.

i've ordered 5 tops and a pair of strappy sandals to keep my spirits up. haha.





ok larrrrr... i so know what all of you are going to say... i know they're all of the same kuan but, i cannot help it...well, at least there's color variation!!! hahaha.