iyamglory (10:05 PM) :
ahahahs...
i want to eat carrot cake with extra black sauce haha
ChOngMiNg (10:05 PM) :
huh???
iyamglory (10:05 PM) :
ahahhs..
yesss!! i'm craving for carrot cake with extra black sauce..
ChOngMiNg (10:08 PM) :
wat the hell is tat?
is that edible?
iyamglory (10:08 PM) :
chai tao kuayyyyyy!!
ChOngMiNg (10:09 PM) :
oh yah....
ChOngMiNg (10:10 PM) :
i din see the cake..
keep reading carrot with black sauce..
ChOngMiNg (10:10 PM) :
i m like wat the hell.






HAA HAAAH HAAAAA..
marvellous.
some people are just absolutely GOON DOO.
army makes them cock eyed.

i think sometimes in life,
some people should remind themselves that
i'm not theirs.
thus said, yays, i'm going to slp my weekend through.
(((:
lots of jj people at cheeky cheeky today..
and they were cheeky too
haahaahaa
totally not funny...
but i wonder why shihan is laughing as i type..
hurr... the acts of a bimbotic queen. tskkk!
no correction, COW.

last night i dreamt of lionel.
HMMMMMmmmmmm...
i wonder where he is now...
probably in uni? hmm.

who knows what's cooking in the oven at 4.33am on a saturday morning?
hurr hurr.... laa laa laa (((:


i keep feeling that there's something watching me...
paranoia? *gongs*


*DING!!!*
//runs to oven door
hahahaaa

H E A T WA VE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!! !!!
the we ath er is R ev O l ti NG.
andiamgettingveryirritatedwiththeweather,nottomentionmyself.
H U R R...
tonight calls for a very very very long run...
without my receiver this time, many thanks to our dearest Mr. Foo.
and there are days where I WANT TO EAT PRATA
and i realise that there's no prata stall within 200m radius.
WO NDE R F U L.
and ngchongming i demand a Repl y to My S M S!!! heeheee...
QUOTE FOR THE DAY:
eat and grow fat.
nice to poke, nice to hug
have you done it yet?
muahahahhahahahs.....
and yes NGCHONGMING REPLY!! REPlyyyyy sillydums... REPLLLYYY!!!
((((((((:

feeling kinda lost, kinda confused, kinda empty.
i hate the fact that i cannot lie.
i also hate the fact that i cannot keep my feelings and emotions to myself.
i am not as emotional as people think me to be. i choose to be emotional at times. but i can still control myself. it's only a matter of when i choose to let my head take control of situations.
i hate the fact that my honesty has hurt someone else. (thus over here, head has made a mistake)
sometimes it doesn't kill to tell a white lie.
maybe some things are better left unsaid.
sometimes i shouldn't be true to myself. (this time round, heart has made a mistake)
sometimes i should be less selfish and care more about the people who love me.
both my heart and my head failed me when i most needed them.
blessed is he whose heart and head doesn't fail him when he needs them.
yank my heart out of it's place,
cut my brain out as well.
let them throb together on the table top and run dry.
wouldn't that be a beautiful sight.
blatant gore. marvellous.


i wish i could turn back time,
go back to those J1 days, where i kept things to myself.

watched Troy and Van Helsing over the weekend.
Troy was wonderful. i loved the ancient cities and clothing.
Van Helsing. one word, spectacular. and wooo..pretty girls pretty girls. even at her death bed, or couch for that matter, anna looked beautifully sexayyy. *drools*
hmmmmms..
mini schnauzer puppy at jurong point's pet station costs $1400.
maybe i shldn't be eye-ing for small little puppies ey?
but it's so cute... love that pretty face.. Woof!

sheesh i feel like runnin away again.
it really isn't gonna go anywhere.
-pokes myself-
stop thinking u stupid head!

hmmmm... opened the mailbox today and guess what i found...? it's a letter a letter! and hohoho.. guess who's it from?? *winks winks* hee i like nice surprises and this is surely a pleasant surprise... ironic thing's that it kinda makes me wanna cry as well... oh sheesh... sometimes in life....and what does the letter say?? what does it say what does it say? why do people continue being so nice to me? i just don't understand.....mind's swirling left right up down twirl twirl around...round and round like a merry-go-round... twirl twirl... gonna have many many things to think about today... and just one month ago i was in town watching a movie.. ho.. and who's that lucky boy.. i wonder who.. heh.. so many things can happen in one month... swish swoosh up down and roundabout like a rollercoaster ride..




and i wished the cab ride would never end

kee kee kee. (((:
*evil laughter*


yays, jj rugby won hc rugby!
this batch of rugby boys are cute.
hurr.


yup yup mother's day today..
supposed to go out to eat at 2pm? and now my brother changes it to evening.
damnit. i could've gone along with my plans.

he looked at the mimosa plant, so pretty and gentle.
but he never ever touched it.
he stared at it everyday.
Soon, he fell in love with the mimosa plant.
one day, he decided to pick the mimosa plant up,
to bring it home, love it, and care for it.
but when his fingers brushed across it's leaves,
it closed up.
and it's thorns pricked him and made him bleed.
it hurt.
he looked at the plant with tears in his eyes.
"why didn't you tell me from the very start not to get close to you?
why didn't you give me any warning at all?"
the mimosa plant looked on.
and when he turned around to walk away,
he thought he heard it say,
"i am but a touch-me-not"
and the mimosa plant looked on.
inside it was hurting.

and thus is the story of the mimosa plant.

feeling so cold, so empty.
nothing left but a hollow vacuum and the deafening silence,
and a suffocated heart.
my eyes are puffy, and i'm suffering from a vigourously throbbing head.
i'm half dead from the pain in my heart.


and if i feel this bad, you must feel a thousand times worse.
sorry. i really am.






//who will dry these tears?

and for one last time,
i love you,
Dear.

i've got a new eye candy!
new pretty boy!
he's super handsome, stunning, charming.
cute, bright, innocent!
he's muhammad hakimul arif!
hakim stands for the judge in court.
arif means intelligent!
MUHAMMAD HAKIMUL ARIF!
*gushes*
















































actually it's just ezdi's primary four brother.
((((:

my brother and his girlfriend are into an online business..
they've got nice stuffs up there...
so do take a look ya!
click here---->nice stuffie

okay let's see what we've bought this year.
1.pink roxy tote bag.
2.muji tote bag.
3.adidas gym bag.
4.espirit tote bag.
5.sony headphones.
6.x japan cd.
7.toshiba tv.
8.x box.
9,10.xbox games: lord of the rings, need for speed underground.
11.aztec brown bikini
12.green reef flip flops
13.tracce heels
14.butterfly heels
15.glow in the dark wrist rest
16.tanning oil spf 4
17.black triangle earrings
18.white sundress
19.light blue sundress
20.white long skirt
21.blue fashion lab top
22.white stripey top
23.green top
24.white + blue nike shirt
25.little shoe shoe nike shirt
26.pink nike shirt
27.blue reebok shorts
28,29,30. 3 pink books
31.one white book
32.levi's 593 jeans
33.b.u.m 3/4 jeans
34.white ulca top
35.black circa top
36.black pepper plus top
37.black wacoal bra
38.pink waterbottle
39.white + pink 37degree top
40.shades
41.cat wallet
42.brown sandals
43. blakc nail polish
44. white nail polish
45. purpur nail polish
46. brownish red nail polish
47. purpur eye shadow
48. pink+blue eyeshadow
49.yummy lip gloss
50.glittery lip gloss
51.body shop strawberry scrub
52. loofah
53545555657585960 i can't remember everything.
and the 453409127843th time i take cab...
andthat's where all my money goes to.
haa.

i keep dreaming today.
four dreams in a single day.
one nightmare, one fall, two weird dreams.
i'm confused.
would you chose to persue something which may have no future?
or would you let it go right now?
because i see no future...


running a fever..
sick leave tomorrow.
screw the meeting.
i feel awful

run?
anyone?
or me myself and i again?
*pouts*

thoughts.
thoughts.
thoughts.
thoughts.
thoughts.
thoughts.
thoughts.

i wish i could blog about my day.
but everything's coming out in incoherent sentances.
blame it on me, you, him, her, your grandpa, grandma, great grand auntie,
even your dead poodle, puppy, pug, parrot.
and i'm quite sure i didn't even spell sentances correctly.
i'm partially insane and the one who keeps me sane is
stuck somewhere within the grounds of tekong.
and no, the run this morning was not enough
i'm going to run again tonight
hopefully this time i wouldn't be running with the rain chasing me from behind.
clouds should just stop moving and give me a little break
whazzat called? cumolonimbus clouds?
i'm infuriated and i've got to let out some steam.
even clouds can cry so why can't i?
quinnnnnnnnnnnnn i want to whineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
*grumbles grumbles*

deleted from icq.
deleted from msn.
deleted from friendster.
deleted from handphone.
two more things and then i'm done.
delete from heart.
delete from mind.




Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep; there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same

is this how it's going to end?
you and me? our friendship, any more, any less?
i don't know where it's heading.
empty promises empty words.
driving me mad. almost insane.
all those tears.
and now i've got no more tears left.
my heart's sad.
it's hard to let you go.
promised i'd never let you go.
but i guess sometimes promises have to be broken.
it's either my smiles or you.
maybe i'm selfish.
but this time i'm giving you up.
i'm tired.
i want to smile again, as i've been for the past 23 days.
i still want to hold on to this friendship.
give me a reason to hold on.
tell me to stay. again.
i'm begging you please.

oooo my pretty balloon boy is selling tickets at GV Jurong Point! *bounces bounces*
dazzling eyes... nice tan... nice hair... gorgeous.. just gorgeous... CHARMING.
he's a superstar!!!!!!! hahahahas..
dear's a superDUPERstar!


dawn of the dead is boring.
no plot. no substance. repetitive gore. no suspense. no tension.
just red paint and more red paint (okay BLOOD as it's supposed to be),
decayed teeth,
retarded walking,
reckless insane dashing zombies,
yellowish-green faces.
dawn of the dead receives zero cookie points!
okay 1/2 a cookie point for effort...for the director Zack Snyder...muahhaa.


children's songs are getting suggestive...
"shirley camel has two humps....
ride on, ride on"
what happened to all the smurfs, carebears, sesame street and gummibears?


i'm down to my last $8.20
*sniffles*

a siang-ish weekend approaches..
TICK TocK tiCk TOcK TicK ToCk TiCK toCK
YeAy!
i Don'T CaRe EvEN iF I aM TyPinG LyK tHiS!
BEcAusE I aM haPpy aNd HappY PeOplE dO StuPiD thIngS!
If You'Re HAppY anD yOu KnoW it ClaP YouR hAndS
mUaHahAhaHAhaha (((((((:
(okay but i'm tired of typing in alternate caps. makes me wonder how some people
can actually do it and enjoy doing it. tskkk... *rolls eyes* muahahhas.. something i'm
against but if you're my friend, it's overlooked muahhahas.. biasness)

Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted

some things just stick out like a sore thumb.
try as you may,
you can't ignore it.
they're like splinters..
you can choose to ignore it
and continue to let it bug you
but sooner or later, the splinter will cause your skin to swell
and that's when you can't tolerate anymore,
and you decide to remove it.
and then again,
you could trash all the initially tolerance,
take a twizzer
and pluck it out.


took a walk to sort my thoughts out.
westmall to home.
walking in the rain with the cars zooming past...
it would have been wonderful time with myself
if the following things didn't happen
*a man was following me for more than 1/4 of my journey..freaked me out
*my sandals went missing in the puddles of water
and i had to search for it like a stupid fool
*a frog jumped onto my leg
*...and jumped off my leg onto the road, where it got run over by a car
*a bangalah was peeing under my block. FUCKER.


i chose the latter
if you mean what you say,
then show me that you love me.
it's not about what I want.
it's about what i mean to you.

i'm thoroughly burnt.
i look like a bright red lobster now. hungry anyone? lol.
i hope the redness goes away by friday..
otherwise i can foresee some evil dear giving me another food name..
first bai chang chee or whatever you call it...some white chicken or something
i dun want to imagine another name hoho


//splats more aloe vera on face


went to look at guinea pigs today...
one fine guinea pig in singapore will be Bubbles!!!
shall drop by holland v to take a look at all the cuties...
anyone wanna go wid glory? plss? *pouts*


quin's sms yesterday was hilarious
"ms leo was tellin those not runnin...see quin now so fat..last time so slim"
hahahahas...you're nt fat kay u're SExyyyyyyyyy muacks muacks sexay baby
*pokes quin for poking me so much in her blog*
i'm poking away 50% of your non-existant fats...
the other 50% for me to hug one LOL...


i'm addicted to hot fudge sundae!!!
but dear i love you more than i love my hot fudge sundae!

maybe after today i'll learn not to skip warm up before running.
pulled my calve (i can't spell damnit) muscle and it hurts.
*whines*
i'm running out of clothes to wear..
or rather, i'm running out of things i LOVE to wear.
apparently i keep wearing and re-wearing the same few things.
hmmm.
but nevermind. it's a fact. i have no clothes.
roar.

i'm bored.
siang says i don't blog about him
so this is a shout out to siang
i'm blogging for you!
let's see...
siang's in whisky.
siang's buddy is weiwang from o2a2
siang's bald..quote unquote "looking like a dickhead"
siang's phone batt's left with two bars
siang's living on the 5th floor
okay, i duno what else.
and so you see siang, your name appeared EIGHT times in
one entry.. tht's 800%
and that is how much i miss you
hahahahahahs....

that's all folks.

i didn't see him die.
his tiny self was cold and stiff when i picked him up
his eyes half closed
no more tiny heart beat
the part time servant said he was struggling and moving his paws frantically.
and he screamed three times...
poor darling...he must have been suffering..
and all this while, i was in deep slumber.
i should have played with him for a longer time ytd night after his bath.
should have sat in front of the cage longer before i went to slp
should have woken up earlier this morning to say hi to it...
*WAILS*
i placed him in a pretty cup,
and buried him downstairs,
outside my room window.
then i can glance out once in a while,
and look at where he was buried
and remember him.
31.10.2002 - 25.04.2004
a beautiful life, short-lived.

Cheezeball's with angels now.
*smile*
probably with a halo too, for being such a good hamster on earth.

guangrong is sick. he's suspected of having dengue fever.
this afternoon, my mum said i'm a lousy friend because i didn't visit guangrong
like, okayyyyyyyyyyyyy...
he won't die just because he's having fever wad!
not like anyone visits me when i'm sick and whiny and baby-ish...
*pouts*

cheeky monkeys was certainly CHEEKY.
anyways
i'm half blind with a bloodshot red eye.
how now brown cow?
i can't see with my right eye.

edzi's birthday today.
babe! u're 19!!
can't wait to see u later..
*hugs*

yesterday...











//Funny how I feel more myself with you
Than anybody else that I ever knew
I hear it in your voice, see it in your face
You've become the memory I can't erase

You could have been anyone at all
A stranger falling out of blue
I'm so glad it was you

Wasn't in the plan not that I could see
Suddenly a miracle came to me
Safe within your arms I can say what's true
Nothing in the world I would keep from you

You could have been anyone at all
An old friend calling out of blue
I'm so glad it was you

Words can hurt you if you let them
People say them and forget them
Words can promise words can lie
But your words make me feel like I can fly

You could have been anyone at allAnd let that catches me when I fall
I'm so glad it was you

Dear, i love you.

i've just realised that my blog entries are becoming blonde.
perhaps i need to put some thought before typing. sigh.
i need to go back to school.. to put my brain at use.
it's getting mouldy.
algae, fungus, growing all over.

nicoll highway crashed today. absolutely tragic. thankfully it didn't crash during peak hours.
can you imagine how many lives would be taken if it came tumbling down at 5.30pm?
londonsingapore bridge is falling down....


tanning tmr wid dee dee darling..then gng out gng out! *nudge nudge* heehee.
i hope it'll be a sunny yummy honey day so that i'll get slightly browner again.
heehee.. i feel like a stubborn pie that refuses to turn golden brown.. anemic pie? aie.. tskk


last night i dreamt that ezdi and i never managed to get our tan..
somehow we got lost along the way to sentosa, and by the time we reached sentosa,
storm clouds were gathering... HUGe monster waves were splashin and..
THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE
argh.. rubbish.....


//she stood before the toilet bowl
and regurgitated that sinful BK meal
that oil soaked food in her tummy
made her sick within.
mentally. eeeewwwww.

siang called my office today..went through the telephone operator and all
he's full of surprises
i'm amused everyday
tsk tsk *winks*


i feel holland-v-ish..
anybody wants to go thr for a cuppa coffeee or two? no????????????
nt tmr though...gym after wrk. tsk.. growing phat!


stupid person called to make enquries today
him: "were you the person i talked to just now?"
me: "yes...i think i was..."
him: "oh what a small world"
(glory rolls eyes)
him: "i didn't catch your name..."
me: "i'm glory... yar.."
him: "do you think you could give me your number?"
me: "huh! no..?!"
him: "why? you sound so sweet.."
me: "sugar's sweet too. even sweeter maybe. why don't you get sugar's number?"
him: "okaaayyy then would u like my number?"
me: "no."


the other instance, Chewy gets bothered by an ns guy for 50 minutes, and consecutively for
3 days.


quote, unquote,
your workplace like chatline leyyyy...

it feels awfully awfully good to be pampered.

i blogged quite abit but i decided to edit the whole entry and type a more proper entry.
i'm freezing now in the study room coz the air con's blowing down on me, and behind me,
there's the fan spinning spinning.


i just got home from a nice yummy run and some cycling. told dad that it's time to change a bicycle
coz it's old and rusty. even bangladeshies of taman jurong have better bicycles than this biodegrading
piece of rusty metal hehehe.. am i poorer than a blangladeshie? oh yes i am actually...i mean, even a
blangladeshie has more than $102.84 in their bank account.


pasta with celest today was yummalicious. lots and lots of cheese + more cheese + much more cheese.
aie, that woman is so "nua" nowadays. woman!! what happened to u sey? *pokes*
pasta is delicious yet sinful. i'm fat and growing fatter and it bothers me very very much.
i need to run more... maybe i shld stop going out with people and visiting ezdi at her shop so that
i can get home early to run more.


thought i'd need some pampering considering that no one actually pampers me.
got myself a bottle of yummy strawberry body scrub from body shop.
i think i'm going to end up eating myself up hohoho.. oh yes. maybe i can eat myself up and eat my
own fats away as well...isn't that good? hohoho...


hmmm i tanned abit at gil's country club today.. and yes swam abit too..
why can't i seem to get dark? can somebody tell me? i want to get dark. like real dark?


oh yes.. and did i mention i'm 50 cents richer today?
finished my running and cycling just now, and i found a shining coin in the ground.
yayyy...
ok cheap thrill.
fine!
*pouts*


going running with baby bren tmr morning.. looks like i gotta slp early tonight
hee hee.. the idea of running in the morning puts a smile in my face.
the sunshine..the crisp air (okay damnit singapore has no fresh air ok? but whatever)...


someone's not at home again...
i'm boredddddddd i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored.

1.24am. my eye lids can't stay more than a cm open but i'm still online.
i wonder why.
i think it's a bad habit, staying awake till i'm totally knocked out.
heh.
time to do some "corrective work order".
slp early and wake up early.
hehe.. someone has to learn to do that too doesn't he?
*nudge nudge*
ok i shall force myself to sleep now.
nights (again) world.

glory is a happy girl today.
plaza sing. into the mirror. bus ride. clarke quay. train ride. the walk home.
(:
*grin grin grin*
i'm tired tired tired tired
time to sleep!
nights world.

la dee daaa.. finally got my lazy ass out of my house to run today...
i wish i could quit my job and slack around the house.. why must i work?!!
*pokes myself* u gong... for money! what else?
my maggi mee's been staring at me for an hour plus, and why? because i'm waiting for someone to
come and feed me hehehe.. what rubbish are u uttering glory!
hmm hmms.. movie tomorrow... i wonder with who!!? hahahas..
*bounces around*
(:

lalalallalalallalaala...
i'm a little mad these daysssssss.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
hello people!
quin: just read ur blog. did well for maths test? *pats on back* great job! heehee.. (:
*growls* off to work in half an hour's time.. but in the mean while.. it's munchie on my cereal...
why can't they put MORE raisins in my great grains? roarrrrr...

the things you do just makes me smile.
i've never felt this way before.
i don't know what this is getting to
and yes, u got it right, i'm afraid.
so many questions in my head,
of which i have no answers to.
but at least now i'm clear of what you are thinking
u've touched me..made me melt inside...
you've gotten to me like no one else has.
you're the sweetest person i've ever known.
(:
*hugs*

my brain is mal-functioning
just random thoughts yes.
*my back hurts
*something's wrong with my eye.. it's red again
*i hate it when my parents wash my white clothes along with 123792085465861230 other colored clothes.
FUCK
*i've got nice new shades. ezdi too.
*i'm a teen ween bit darker... more tanning to go
*my handphone bill for this month will go bust.
prolly some part of it will go like "20478501239492789572 sms sent"
*re-painting my nails tonight
*met nad
*kill momo
*quin how's ur ulcer on ur lip
*shihan, tanning again this weekend yes? (or maybe no depending on my recovery)
*ezdi just named herself "SWEETS" in my handphone
*i wish i activated my gprs, then i'd be able to receive that forever friends msg from you
*PEople should stop speculating. ROar.
*shihan probably hates my "under the sea" msg ringtone
*work tomorrow. damn.
*i wonder what on earth you're doing
*how's the bestfriend?


rights.. my brain is really messy now.

yay yay yay.. it's a TUESday...skipped work today which finally means i get to tan!
mr sun sun, pls pls be yummy dummy and shiny today coz i luv luv luv you so much? yes??
been getting home real late these days...i better get home early today before my parents blow.
la dee daa... i <3 visitin dee dee at her shop..feels like paradise.. in my own lil corner of the world.
movie ytd and supper wid the three of em...
so 11+pm-ish, three wonderful people, lots of nice finger-lickin mouth-slurping food, and newton hawker centre.
aieeee. talk about bein tired. i am tired! but i'm loving this exhaustion..at least my brains are too tired to think.
i'm not thinking anymoreeeeeeee!!!! ahahhahsssss...so i know not what i am doing. thank you very much.
roarrrrrrr...

gym with the two silly colleagues, followd by a really yakkaty yak yak night.
glory was real yakky ytd.
talks with ed.! and chongming and siang...
didn't get to slp till 5am in the morning. roarrr...no wonder i'm feeling so so tired today.
kept dozing off all over the place...in the bus, watching tv, and whatevers.
hmmmms..
went out wid the bestfriend today to catch a movie. scooby doo 2.
yes, such a lame movie but the black boy wanted to watch it, so. yeap.
anyhows i enjoyed myself..hehe..
and i'm silently happy that he's out of course.
no more commando! *jumps around*
sheeeeeshhh... glory u little bitch. heh.
going dwn for a run soon. i ate lots and lots of "har gao" and prawnsie stuff today.
going to be a dinosaur soon. ROAR.

yesterday:-
*went to the gym with ezdi. and it was lyk, yayyy fun!
*shopping in town before we bumped into quin + momo.
results rxn: OH FUCK haahahahaa..
*liquid room with the babes. we were on e guest list! so no queues for us ya. hehe
nice ambience, great DJ, yummy malibu pineapple
(: wonderful night
ay, and some stupid things, but ay, what's in the club's in the club yes??? no?
aie, anything anything!
it's GOOD FRIDAY
all the sins washed away la ahahahhaha
*quin + damai stayed over. mai totally stinked up my bed wid her DIRTY clothes. ROAR!


today:-
*went dwn to raffles marina to watch e touch games wid ezdi+damai+quin
MY JUNIORS ARE CHAMPIONS! yes, like finally. i've been waiting for this day man.
nearly cried when sari scored tt try during sudden death. the scene was so tense...
could even feel those babes losing their cool already. ROAr..i want to see them do it again during
nationals. ROARRRRRrrrr.....
*i'm b-u-r-n-t.

chewing on a big crunchy pink apple (:
ran over to shihan's place...her room's still as messy as ever!
but she bought pretty stufF! *jealous*
//crunches on big yummy apple.. (:

yawns chongming get out of camp soon can? there's no one for me to pester when u're in camp. i love to irritate you more than i love to irritate the hell out of my brother. i miss seeing you and making you look feel stupid and silly. and although you talk to everyone else more than me and u go out with everyone else more often than with me and i get jealous and cry and cry and make alot of noise and whine and kick a big fuss out of everything .




o damai + quin just called.
temz temz tomorrow! yayyyy...




shheesh. totally out of point!
as i was sayinggggg....
...and kick a big fuss out of everything, i still want you to come out and talk to meee! chongming chongming chongming get ur butt out of commando camp. don't fight for glory and honor anymore lar.. go tekong and fight terrorists k? *pouts*

i'm getting very bored at home, even with the computer xbox tv digicam lots of food hamster
the runs are getting boring too.
(ytd was a lil' more fun though. this irritating guy with big ego
just HAD to run a LITTLE MORE than me..if i don't stop, he won't stop.. ass!)
i need:-
*a after 5pm job on weekdays
*a weekend job
*a good solid tan
*the black adidas bag
*the sarah mclanclan afterglow
*new flip flops
*NEW SPECS preferably the rimless levi's specs frame heheh


i'm damn bored now.
yawnsss.
does anyone need me to take their dog for walks?
FOC
haahhaa

Mmm...
finally decided to buy it after such a very long time.
yes, 3 years, IS a long time.

reminds me of her.




//those tears,
those cruel cold stares.
i don't want it to happen again *shudders*
twice is enough.
so it'll just be
u and ur netball
and our oh-i-didn't-have-anything-to-do phonecalls (:

can somebody pls slap me awake?
each day passes, and i'm still in a daze.
i'm stuck in my own time capsule.
and yes,
the other day, i thought it was wed when it's supposed to be thur.
dee dee + nad shld rmb.
today still feels like wednesday.
i fear weekends.
and don't we all know why.
haa.
:(






i went for an eye check up at singapore poly's optometry centre this morning.
spent 2.5 hrs sitting in the chair. checking the oh-so-blind-glory.
aparently i have very unusual eyes.
quoted "one in two hundred people" have problems lyk mine.
haahaa! i'm SPECIAL kay?
new specs coming my way. ho ho ho (:
think my parents will agree to it la dee daa.






i've got a new flik-flak watch.
thanks to maybank rewards.
hahaha....
it's baby blue, with 8 little white geese.






the bestfriend pops today! yeay!
hmmm. not like u'd be reading this anw, but ya, congrats! (:

glory to daddy: "daddy! do u want to go down and run wid me today?"


daddy: "okayyyy..." turns around, walks to bed and sleeps.
-____________________-

i heard someone's going to get $60 bucks for answering highway code questions.
i want that kinda money too!
//tugs momo
it's easy money man


and moomoocow.
i'm going to KILL YOU.
u didn't answer ANY of my calls for the past duno how many days.
how could u!
sob sobs.

oh and did i mention i lost my keys?
okay i think i did.
=<
my keys.. my darlin keys wid my favourite keychain..
the one i've been using since primary five...
*Sobs

my ears can't fuckin stop itching.
whatever it is that keeps irritatin my ears,
u've won! my ears are HURTING!
are you happy now?
so get the hell outta my ears!!!!


okay and if the soft approach works better for you,
oh preety plaaaaaaaallllessssssssseee.. can u let me off?
u're gorgeous today.
my ears are too low class for u.
roarrrrrrrr.


okay and hello people!
glory is sick of trying to be fair
escapades from mr sunshine rays
and the "no! i dun wanna go tan!" speeches.
does anyone wanna go soak in the sun?
shuddup celest. i know u're fuggin laughin at me! bitch!!!! =p
hahahas....


and shoot me.
i lost my entire bunch of keys.
either i dropped them in the cab this morning,
or in my office.
plah. i'm prayin hard that it's in the office.


okies shall blog more laters.
off to run wid my baby brenda.
la dee daa.. i miss that little baby.
*hops around*

that freak in my office came early today.
he took one of the permanent staff's key home
and came to the office at 7.30am (work starts at 8.30am).
and very obviously
he didn't know that the first person to step into the office
has to key in the password to de-activate the security alarm.
ha haa haa!!
"RRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!"
i heard he got so freaked out he ran out...and,
maybe his lucky stars were shining on him..
he ran into the director. haahaaahaa!
he got a huge huge huge scolding from our officer in charge.
hmmms. now tell me,
who on earth goes to office an hour early?
i'd understand if you're a perm staff,
and you've got lots of work to finish up.
but him? the one who apparently does nothing at all?
tell me why oh tell me why. i wonder what intentions he habours.
anyways he's not coming to work tomorrow.
apparently he's too "upset and traumatised" by the incident. haa!


hush hush. enuf bitchin glo!


apparently our merMAID is going bonkers.
observed and chop stamp
by me and the tall bugger who thinks she's OH SO CUTE
(am i right celest?hahaha)....
mermaid mermaid...
be good, stay home and act tai tai-ish okies?
*pats head* nice little girl. (=
if u get too bored u can come over and bathe little cheezeball for me *yay free labour*.
afterall, u're hamster nanny aren't u? *winks winks*


aieeeee.. i'm bored. help? blinks blinks*
*didn't eat my fruit fruit fruities today
*no veggie today
*didn't eat my vitamin C!
sigh.. i'm going to die. grow old... and die... just die...
shuddup glory.
nite nites.

was working throughout the entire day, packing the enrolment packages for the kids joining SP this coming july. the envelopes and pieces of paper were bitter. they didn't stop biting me. now i've got a countless number of cuts on my fingers and knuckles. *tears*
i have cultivated a tendency to take cabs everywhere i go. that's a huge burden to my wallet. does anyone happen to know of a cab rehabilitation center? haha....okay that was so not funny. hmmmms...
right now i'm suffering from darlingsss-withdrawal-symptoms. :<
1. loss of memory about other people
2. continual staring at photos of them
3. repetition of stupid things they said
4. longingness for them to appear "online" on my msn list


RAINBOW CONNECTION

Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side
Rainbow's are visions
They're only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to
Believe it
But I know they're wrong wait and see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that
And someone believed it
And look what it's done so far
What's so amazing
That keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see

Someday we'll find it
That Rainbow Connection
The lovers the dreamers and me

all of us under that spell
we know that it's probably magic

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

to my darlin ruggies
wheyyyyyyyyyy... why are all of u condemning (is there such a word?) me!
at least i don't flop around like our sri lankan crab,
neither do i sprout nonsense lyk our dear tall stick marrrrrrrrrrrrrr
hahahaha..
ok okays.. i admit defeat.. but at least i can take care of myself!!!!
right?????
no?!!!!!!
*grouchy*
boo hoo hoooooo.....
bullies.
*sniffs*


i'm bored. and momo why is ur tagboard missin? i wanna tag tag Tag! bleah....
i can't seem to find any nice blogskins.
perhaps i shall reduce mine to a totally white background.
hoho... will look into that.
i want i want i want the ipod mini
//points to entry below
it's pretty isn't it?
now people vote!
yes or no???????
leave a note. yay.

i want an ipod mini.
this one, to be exact.

boy oh boy.. doesn't it look great.
no points for the person who guess where my pay's going to next!
*laughs*

dinner with MJDDS (:
i'll let the pictures speak.



















----->take a peek for more picts ahahhas..

bugger celest
i didn't molest you.
i only Touched you
aie aie... how could anyone help it?
afterall, u were flashing your yummy tummy.
HO HO HO!
=p

yesterday was good.
thoroughly enjoyed myself tee hee.
damai was funny. ahhahhahas....
across the bridge was even nicer.. *ponders* hmmmm


and i'm amused at how SMOOTH some people can get...
eeeeks! keep your lips off me! i don't even know you!
my gawddd....
//washes my hand wid lots of soap and more soap...


okiez. i want the photos! lala la. *smiles*

singapore poly's system was down and out for the whole of today. apparently someone sent a virus to attack the system over the weekend. "black eyes (or ice, whichever it is)", a programme supposedly installed to protect the computer, was ironically the medium by which the virus was transmitted through. haa. the ironies of life huh?


this chinese jjc classmate came by to apply for an SP course today.
conversation went like that (though i sounded abit retarded, but nevermind)
me: "u're from S10 right?"
she: "A6 right? the cannot speak chinese one right?"
-__________________-
i swear i nearly killed her on the spot.
i hope ur application fails!
*evil laughter*


movie watching last saturday with haojie.
people, DO NOT WATCH the eye 2.
it's lame.
but glory still cowed in fear lar coz hahaha..
loser. =p


okies. back to my book.
bought two new books. should be able to last me through this week i guess.

i miss the short hair days...
where i just slapped gel/wax onto my hair in the morning after my bath,
and rushed down to my dad's car. and in that few minutes car ride to school, i'd mess up my hair.
and those were the days where i visited celest's second home (haha..eun, cow, u remember??) after every lesson.







the days when:-
*i hated people touching my head
*hair gel/wax held top priority in my survival kit
*i cut my hair every week
*steven bloody koh loved picking on my hair
*chan kok heng went around telling "stories
*i was about 5 cm taller than i am now

n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
ahhahahah
n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
blh blah gl0 gl0 be happy
n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
c0s quin quin wans u t0 smile f0r me
n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
ahahahah
n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
try singin it!
perplexed. says:
haha.. to what tune
perplexed. says:
?
n im stlLl QuiNnnnn says:
blah blah black sheep


she's damn cute. lights up ma day.
*huggggsss*

the other saturday,


they came over,





whacked each other up,




BAAM!!!





WHAMMMMM!




BOOOM!!!


they didn't even let off,



poor little old winnie the pooh.


had some yummy pizza





and our dear laydee cldn't stop snapping at herself!



OH ANYHOWS,
all work and no play makes jill glory a dull girl.
they made me happy.
*smiles*

lionel's weblog: "Well well sometimes you feel sad and emotional but it's pointless"...which set me thinking. true enough, thinking's redundant. the more you think, the more confused you get.
so shuddup heart and listen to your fucking brain.
i've refrained from bloggin because all that comes out of me simply shows how totally vulnerable i am. laugh at me people. laugh!
well, was telling aggy (was it aggy? i can't remember) all the songs i like.. and i thought of counting crows. heh...
which set me thinking (again!) about the time i was studying at css macs wid cm, and i kept writing the same few lyrics...
....don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you've got till it's gone....
hmmmm,
brother, be weary.
i'm starting to trip. i'm losing my grip.

these pretty baby cakes cost $150 a box. i would really want some cakes like these. any takers? heehee.


i'm a damn happy girl today.
hehe
lurvvvvvvvvv talkin to ya!


momo, i hear of a hamster! growls growls.
now u're a real hamster nanny.

i wish i could catch Disney on Ice's Beauty and the Beast.
but it's just an empty wish...
mmmmm.
maybe i shall buy the dvd and watch it over and over.
*pats little heart*
=(

i know this sounds weird coming from me,
but,
i miss sitting in jjc canteen,
staring at the track,
and the field,
and the people walking past.
maybe it's the people whom i got to know in jj,
who made all the shit become fond memories.
hmmm.


you all know who you are.
and although u all weren't tt close to me in jj,
u all were the closest i had in jj.
lala all u pretty people...
nice nice hearts <3 .
big big smile (= .
sad sad tears :,( .
i love u all.




and,


i miss the bestfriend.
was thinking of the times in sec1, sec2, sec3, sec4, J1, and J2, and now.
we've come a long way.
let nothing change the way we are ok?
and i miss the stupid phonecalls whr "i can't sleep"
or "my stupid father won't let me go online".
heh.
childish sey...
but damn cute.
heheh. thoughts like tt tickle me.
makes me happy when i'm dwn.
but army made u lose ur stupidity.
you're no longer cute cute.
but i love you still..because
u're the WORST BESTFRIEND.

boo hoo. the two games i want to buy,
*need for speed: hot persuit 2
*crazy taxi 3: high roller
both cost $74.90...
maybe i shld go modify my xbox afterall..
hmmm
*ponders*

today i met a girl while doing the JAE surveys at Singapore Poly. she's 14...a school drop-out. her arms bore lines and lines...endless lines, of dried up blood. i wanted to tell her to stop cutting. it hurts. i know that whatever she's feeling hurts even more...but...*shrugs* i don't know what to say... =( cut after cut after cut..i can almost visualise the penknife slicing through her crystal skin and leaving behind a vivid line of red...and then the sizzling pain...almost sensational... and then the temporal sensation goes away...leaving a scar to remind you of the hurt you once knew. always. it can never be erased.


yes. the scars will remain.

hmmm.
HMMM.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
i'm feeling quite empty.
hmmmmmmmmmm.
hi cow.
hi girlfriend.
hi celest.
hi doris.
hi eun.
hi ezdi.
hi nad.
hi quin.
hi ed.


o yes.
the italian job is ooh-la-la!
high speed, flashy cars, and perfect planning.
keeping my eyes entertained ay.
and another thing,
venice!
i'm dying to go there.

be careful of what you wish for.
last month i wished i had a flip phone.
yesterday, i got my flip phone.
my 6610 read my mind,
and attempted to morph into my heart's desire.
It tried..and nearrrrllllly made it there.
so yup, my flip phone!
not exactly the way i wanted it,
but yeah, it DID flip.


Watch it flip

after an entire 3 months plus of silence,
she suddenly forwarded a msg to me.
it's weirddddd. *shrugs*
remember the damn encouragin note she wrote fer me at concourse..
and those really touchin sms..
but,
i still remember her coldness when i msged her to ask her about stuff last dec
she only replied after i msged her both phones 5 times?
//sulks


wassup man?


maybe she didn't mean to forward it to me,
maybe it was meant for someone else...
but i guess, in a way, it's good to know that,
she didn't delete my number off her contact list.
grrrrr.. nt tht i'm tt close to her
but those times when we sms-ed daily were nice.
and it was darn cute cuz we wouldn't talk in school
but we'd talk through sms.
mmmmmmm... *ponders ponders*

they say a picture speaks a thousand words.
here's it:



got my loofah and my foot scrub,


and yes, my xbox as well.
so my room's PURRFECT now. *blinks*
bye world. i'm stuck to my room.

today's the 22nd February.
22nd feb marks thinking day.
to my fourteen other gorgeous girl guides (1999-2001),
steph, keatwee, doris, charmaine, meibao, peiwon, huiyee, xingying, jingting, jiawen, onara, yasmin, jinxiu, ying ying,
happy thinking day.
let's take this day, to think about those times we spent tgt. in laughter and tears.


i promise to do my best: to do my duty to god, to serve my country, and help other people, and to keep the guide law.


and yeah, to the scouts, we had a fair share of bickers. but it was fun still. (=

oh ho ho ho. now i know why i love used to love cough mixture.
there's proof that it actually works! ahahas.
kays, that's not funny.
but yeah... i've got no more cough mixture anyways.

this hot chick came today.
for four hundred and thirty bucks.

this is my new bitch.
she'll be keeping me entertained for nights and nights to come.
she's mine. all mine.

i spent two hours copying these lyrics. yeah... chinese. headache, headache.


going to stop crying. these tears will lead to nowhere.
i'll live through this shit..and someday, everything will just be fine.
things resolve naturally...
maybe..maybe..
or am i just decieving myself..? blargh.
i sound damn pathetic this couple of days..
and i feel pathetic.
shucks..

met up wid celestina..oh yes, she's a working woman now. all dressed up in shirts and pants... man, she looked like career woman. i can even picture her 10 years later, working in her own office, signing documents and all. (celest, how much are you going to pay me for this statement???) woms, i really really really miss u alot alot a lot. darrnn..never knew our situations are similar grrrrrr.. but at least u've got ur answer now so u're in bliss lar....and if u want the cake-mixer, just msg me ok..?
fuck. listening to all those sad sad songs by tonya mitchell and brian mcknight.. making me feel cacat all over..up..down..left...right...inside and round about. fuck. why am i all teary? fuckit fuckit fuckit. tears, STAY IN UR Bloody goddamn tear duct. assy tear duct..what the hell are you doing? trying to drain my body of my water content or what!
growls...my language is getting trashy..
grrrr..mixed feelings now...part of me misses someone lyk crazy and wants to see the person right now...the other part of me just wants to stay home and cry and cry and cry..
was at the busstop opp, lookng up at e rm window..mmmmm....wished a face wld pop out of tt window but yeah, that's nt possible...oh wells.

in my dad's lab waiting for work to begin. dad's outside washing his car..
time reading: 7.04am. (starting wrk: 8.30am) *laughs*
sound of the chirping birds outside + the lizards in the dark corners of the lab.
it's so quiet in here that for a while, i thought i could hear my heart speaking out loud. It's dying...crying...silently, like a weeping willow by the pond.......alone.
i need to get out of this mood. need to heal..heal FAST. i'm not a person who likes to drag. plah...whatevers. whatevers. *sad face*

i know i'm stupid.
i know i should just pack up and go. to leave,
and let you learn the hard way.
i know you'll feel the pain if i choose to leave
and i also know, that you know, that you only have yourself to blame.
you tell me "stay", but your actions are screaming "GO AWAY!"


i feel damn stupid. i think i'm damn stupid. i know for the very fact that i AM stupid.
i know i could be strong. i know i could just say "you deserve this fucking bastard", turn my heart cold and leave. i know i can rely on all the people around me who love me to break my fall and to climb back up again.


i was searching for a reason to why i should stay...
initially when it was all anger and hatred and hurt and confusion, i couldn't find a reason to stay. but when i pushed those emotions away, and thought about the past, i remembered all that you've done for me. and above all that, you were there for me when i needed you. how could i leave? sigh.


//how could an angel break my heart?

just.needed.to.put.my.tears.in.pictures.so.that.i.could.breathe.a.little.more.

feel like crap.
no, wait.
i AM crap.
waddafuckinbullshit.
yeah..I AM CRAP!
my life is crap.
so crappy tt u aren't replying to my msgs anymore!
fuck.

on a lighter note,
my dear dear dearest touch girls + cow + gil,
made a guest appearance in my sleep.

should i stay, or should i go? says:
rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed.
should i stay, or should i go? says:
could i
girrrrl~ rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed says:
haa.. you cant.. cos some ppl have already done that to us
should i stay, or should i go? says:
so i've got no more heart ezdi.
should i stay, or should i go? says:
but since i don't have a heart wid me,
should i stay, or should i go? says:
why can't i be heartless

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

CHORUS
It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

CHORUS

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

CHORUS

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about


//girl is crushed.

right now,
i need them.
shihan,celest,ezdi,nad,mai,momo,quin,gil,vivis,bin,chailee,guang.
desperately.
i'm broken.
and i can't get up.
i can't breathe.
i can't pretend i'm alright.
because i know i'm not.

and sometimes, you cry till your pillow's all wet. till your eyelids are puffy and you can't open your eyes. and the tears just keep flowing. the mind's too empty to tell the tears to stop flowing.
and your heart has shattered into a million bits.
and you know that you don't have the strength to climb out of bed. you don't want to talk.


ineedtocut.tofeelthati'malive.toknowthatistillexist.torememberthati'mhuman.tocurethisnumbfeeling.

one year ago i stayed up till 5am to make cookies and pack chocolates.
this year, i'm up again to sew.
yes, SEW
so my darlin babes, check your mailboxes soon! (not so soon..but soon? i hope.)
going against technology..snail mail rox.
and if what you see in your envelopes doesn't please your eye,
like for eg, lousy endings, ugly stitches,
DO not whine!!!!
for glory DID try. ahahahas...
oh yes. happy vday. (:
//goes back to pink thread, purpur felt and purpur hearts.
*squeals* very nice very nice. (:

i have gone missing for a while. to find myself. (ya right) lala.
and i shall continue to go missing for more whiles. lala.








celest, this was what i was doing while u nagged at me from 11pm to 2am.
LOL. *grins widely*

went dwn to singapore naval base to watch the jrs' game.
after tt was just chilling out wid my darlings... *smiles*
ahh, all that celest, ezdi, nad and mai said makes purrfect sense.
enjoy bein wid them...
because it's like, suddenly, everything doesn't matter anymore.

luff u all! *muacks*

shihan says i'm evil because i like to lead guys on..
but i don't think i'm evil...
it's just pure entertainment for the bored soul..
they're just plain stupid...


haven't been blogging..
still feelin quite stoned maybe
and the work load's coming in..
phonecalls, brochures, filing, enquiries, counter duty, typing in data..


work today was pretty fun..
flirting at the counter.. hurrr..
thr wuz diz damn nice guy..
asked him to help us get another of the freebie organizer
(yes, SP admin office staff are "gian beng")
cuz they didn't wanna give us anymore..
he went up, got two for me,
and even got ice cream for me!
haha.. but i cldn't eat at the counter..
so i rejected it.
-sulks- ice cream..ice cream.. i want ice cream
//nudges gege...
gege, i want ice cream! let's go eat when u book-out k?
preeeeettty pleeeaaassseee?


mmm..
ur missed calls on my phone for the past two nights
will u call again tonight?
the phone's by my side today...
i'm waiting for ur call..
Call! call!!
i miss you..
*pouts*

awake.stoned.
shall pretend to slp..
and stay in bed..
till it's time for work tomorrow.
don't feel like talking,
or doing anything.
i'm just,
stoned.
too much med lst nyt, my liver hurts.

I don't feel too good today...never felt worse...
walked around in town...so many people around me..
but it was silence i heard inside...
your warmth...your touch...everything about you,
makes me smile.
and today,
perhaps we're both very confused people..
we don't know what we want.
i'm sorry.
and if, i take my leave for a while,
please remember,
how much you mean to me...
more than yesterday, and lesser than tomorrow
//tears
extra cough syrup today, to let me sleep through tomorrow...

at the current moment i earn $45.96 a day.
for 7 hrs of wrk, i get $45.96!
which means i get $6.56 an hour..
minus CPF cut, i get $5.25 an hour...
which, is MORE THAN WHAT I GET AT BILLABONG...
for just sitting down.
and,
i've got my own phone!
so call me people... at ... 6772 8884..
for next week, my name shall be polly.
so ASK for polly haha
*grin*