my shop will be featured in march'06 edition of FEMALE!


the year end's coming! and so is my parent's 25th wedding anniversary bbq. HAHA.. can't wait to feast my teeth into juicy chicken wings and cheese cuttlefish balls. yummy! i'm actually more interested in the food than celebrating their union of 25 years, really.


birthday's coming but my mum hasn't gone back to work. no dog for me. what a spoiler. i anticipated the existence of Ruffles for more than a year. ):

there's something about waking up early in the morning that makes me insanely happy and bright. my feet feel lighter, and there's a happy air all around. even the traffic lights turn green at the right moment.
of cause i could attain such thrill by setting my alarm at 6 in the morning, just to wake up to hit on the snooze button for a thrillion times, and eventually turn the alarm off and fall right back to sleep, and feel blatantly overjoyed to be able to.
:D

i like watching people doing silly things for other people. haha because it's funny. especially during the festive season and end of the year, most people start becoming queer. and they begin to lose the self restraint they've been having during the rest of the year. they say they're broke more than half the time and suddenly they have enough to spend to tell you there's a burnt hole in their pocket. (no mo, with no ref to u) and then you start to see people doing blatantly sweet things for others which make spectators feel all warm and fuzzy inside. and you feel so all-seeing and all-knowing because you know what is happening even before they do. mauhahahaha.. despite all the comicality, i am but one of them.


shuckssss. so can you see what i can't see???




jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way...

once again i was thinking about how nice it would be to have someone to just sit with you and keep you company, a person that you're with not because he's the wittiest person you know or something that you have the most fun with or that he's the best listener you can find. too many expectations are tied with these titles and each and every time he falls below standard, you feel disappointed at his failture to live up to what you believe him to be. moreover, all these qualities are replaceable, the moment you find someone else who's funnier, or livelier, or conversely quieter or more realistic. maybe a special someone is a person that you find the most natural to be with, not because he has any particular traits or characteristics, but because being with him is the way it has always been. when there is no need for spoken words as they are but talismans to ward off the silence. when you are comforted just by that person's presence and the recognition of the fact that you are not alone.


and then a sudden revelation hit me. maybe i should stop judging and expecting and under-rating.


ilu.

morbid thoughts consume the mind leaving me in the state of nothingness.
my sanity is in question.

i was listening to class95 while walking to the pool today.
a ghost walks into a bar, goes over to the bar and tells the bartender:
"i'd like some whiskey."
the bartender turns to him and says:
"i'm sorry, but we don't serve spirits over here."
wah laus. super lame.


i'm sitting in my cosy room drinking warm porridge made by my mum. mmmm... i feel loved today. :D

while others dressed up with painted faces, costumes, music, dance and booze, us four decided to go cycling. woohooooooooo.

we cycled from east coast to changi village for nasi lemak and trans viewage then back to east coast again. halfway through there was a thunder storm and ooooomg it was freezing with the rain hitting against my skin and the breeze blowing against me. BOOO HOOOOOO.

pit stop at the toilet near safra resort chalets to dry ourselves out. hand dryers come in handy on occasions like this! (: then it was a power ride all the way down to mac's at the other end of east coast park cause we didn't wanna get caught in the next shower.

almost 6 hours of cycling. my thighs and knees and calves are aching like crazy, not to mention my ass. i can barely walk OR sit. this is goood work out i say.

today i went to arab st. for some arab food at cafe le claire (or something like that). i tried something new called sheesha. it's fumes with flavour. i particularly liked the grape sheesha! yay. but too much of it makes the throat feel a lil dry.
hmmm. so many things in singapore which i haven't gone to discover. ):
i want to travel around the world.

i'm eating ice cream at 3 am in the morning..totally inappropriate, but these days, where girls wear knee high boots in 32degree celcius tropical singapore, what's eating icecream in the middle of the night?
chongming is gonna be away for a month. we spent the past three days together and the past three days must've been the best days of my life. (: no doubt about it.

days have been gray.
(the following passage is gonna be in rotton language)
quarrel until vomit blood. cry until wanna die. drink until puke like mad. don't even know why we're still together!!?! no money to shop. no money for new clothes. no money for good food. kns.
(end of totally rotton language)
swimming rocks at keeping a mind sane. and talking to very gossipy lifeguards too. :D

we brought snuffles out to play today! she's a happy girl now.

drown me in water, throw me against a wall and give me a good hard knock all around. i won't feel a thing!
when your boyfriend falls asleep on you while you're crying away, you're strong enough for anything..anything at all.
and as if once is not enough, he does it twice in three days.
totally awesome.


where have all the good days gone?
have i been blinded that i only see the bad?

all's fine and dandy now. thanks for all the hugs and love. HEE.

we broke up.
packed all the stuff he gave to me into a huge bag and returned it all back to him.
my head's spinning and spinning.
i don't feel like talking to anyone.


damai dearest sorry i couldn't make it for your chalet. happy birthday! (:


shall let slumberland wipe away these painful tears. sleep is the best remedy. see, only the sleepless worry and cry.

i went to the hairdresser's today to snip off an inch and a half of my hair. damn those split ends and dried hair. the bottom half of my hair's still very damaged.. it goes all the way up to like 3/4s of my hair. hmphhffff. hair bleaching is the number one hair killer i say.


it's shocking how two people can be so happy and loving at one moment, and full of hatred the very next. and the best way to avoid it all? not to commit.
i hope i'll never experience such a thing. shakes head.

you think your past week has been wonderful. you have no worries, no qualms about anything. you spent every possible second with your boy, and he meets you everytime he has a chance to. you do things together, go out together, watch endless dvds until you both fall asleep. you think nothing can get better than this. you think that your failing relationship is actually going to get better. you actually start to love him again.


and then at the end of it when you ask him out to keep you company for a little while, he'd rather stay home to do his stuff, and stay home cause he thinks his parents would be angry if he's missing all the time. that gets you kinda upset, but it's okay, you'll whine a little and get over it. and then he says the most hurting words you can ever imagine: "do you know what's enough?"

oh man my eyes hurt like crazy. they feel so dry and sore, i doubt i'd be able to wear my lenses tomorrow. will have to put on my big cbunky spectacles to work. eeeewwww.
just came back from supper (technically speaking marcus' supper) with eun and marcus. it's interesting to hear a guy's point of view. and wow he has his own bike. hmphhf. i want my own transport too.
dinner at the rice table with the mjdds people at suntec last night to celebrate neo's birthday. was kinda pleasant to see all the old faces again. i do admit i was bored at times cause i couldn't quite catch what they were saying. pouts. but i had a great time anyway. as usual we didn't take any photos again.
arghhhhh i wanna blog about last week's events but i shall continue another day. nods nods.

it amazes me how i can feel more appreciated by someone who's a thousand kilometres away as compared to someone who lives ten minutes away from me. i really wish he were here by my side, instead of being so far away. and it doesn't help when one text message costs 60 cents.




silly memories stuck in my head to help me pass my day by..."tomatensaus!". "spleetog!", "ik ben glory!"
(: giggles. come back metal mouth techno richie.

two consecutive nights of alcohol is giving my head a hard time. tonight was especially wonderful. but all these will end on tuesday. then, you'll be gone.

this entry is dedicated to mersai once again. quote unquote mersai: go blog go blog!
can't seem to get to sleep so i'm going to work with pooofy eyes. so much for laughing at mersai's pathetic sleeping time left. BOOOOOO.
supper at lau pa sat with pretty quin pretty danny and horrible mersai (muahahaha) last night. me thinks all food tastes good at night. perhaps tastebuds taste a little more after the sun sets and the moon's high up in the sky, right above our heads.
yesterday i learnt that cars can dance to music too! right left right left right left. heh. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. more car rides at night! thanks!


mersai's last day working at treetops. i'll miss her (SOMETIMES, which is very seldom). HAA HAA okay i shall stop being mean, afterall she's gonna help me take apron and top from the linen room. THANKS MERMAID! hugs.

i just chucked my last thirty into wormy's wallet. ): i'm broke. my bank account's balance of 85cents is an eyesore, like a baboon's ass. i secretly dream that someday my parents/boyfriend will strike the lottery. but then again, they don't even know what 4D is. TSK.


glory's get everythingyouwant plan:
Plan 1:
go out with a new guy every fortnight. and the first probable target would be little boy who says he'll pay for everything if i break up with wormy to be with him! xD


plan 2:
split my room into half and rent it out.


plan 3.
go out with a new guy every fortnight.


plan 4:
go out with a new guy every fortnight.


as you can see, i don't have any bright ideas.
Zzzzzzz.

time apart has done us good. will always remember to cherish what i have. dropping little praises here and there brings smiles lalala.


the past half a year together has been wonderful.





thank you for all the love you bring to me.




dinner at holland v with the usual suspects. it was hilarious looking at the monkey and the fat bastard constantly insulting each other. stan came much later and i amused myself by caressing his bald head. the five of us ate from swensens to spizza to tcc. goodness gracious me. *pokes me fat tummy*
what a weird way to spend my 6th month with wormy. but more company makes better conversation so no harm really.


absent myself from milady and treetops for the past week to rest at home. had to pamper my tired tired body. to all my lovelies: i miss you all. tuesday night shall be for you you you and you. wheeeeee.

celest:
thanks my dear. *massages your tired arms and legs*

it feels quite good to be single albeit abit boring and lonely at times but with some odd distractions it's alright. elainey lainey came down to acc me. i love elaine laine. you know just exactly how i feel MUAHs. with reference to the first sentence, don't be alarmed. i have not broken up..i've just decided to erms take a break.


sending hugs to quin quin quin my dear quin.

let's see. i shall blog abitss.
-basically quarrels with wormy agains but it's okay i'll get over it soon enough.
-my princess dropped by at milady to gimme hugs and to slam me in the face, just like 4 years back. roar!
-a buncha brunei people came to shop in my shop today. wow they're cool la they even have a personal security guard escorting them.
-theft at hula and co. later at night where these two chao lao women stole 4 skirts and a bag and probed my pretty girl's eyes.
-caught mr and mrs smith at ps with brother, his girlfriend, and daniel.
i'm tired and i'm off to sleep agains. ta ta world.

specially for miss eunice since she's bored and says that i must blog more:

HELLOS PUFFY!!!!!
((:

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yays! i have yet another snuffed animal from my dearest.
hugggs. thank you!


so tired from work. but i shall just keep thinking about the money.


i'm watching andy lau on tv. how sad can my life get? *BAWLS*

am dead beat. thanks to some co-partner who doesn't do his darn job.
anyhoos...5 hrs of sleep and i'm off to work again.

my love life - zero
my social life - zero

my gawd.

hohoho.
shop opening later this afternoon!!
talk about E-F-F-E-C-I-E-N-C-Y!


suffering from sleep defecit. getting home at 6am in the morning is not fun.
):

tired tired tired.
gotta do the crappish packing..
who wants to pack for me? yay.

been so busy i only got to pee TWICE since 7.53am friday to 4.37am, saturday.
endurance of the bladder. wow.


down with the exams.
other more important things to do.
TIRED TIRED TIRED!

approximately 12 more hrs to my last paper, and 15 more to my so-called freedom.
let me give you a picture of what i see in my head for tmr's paper.
@!$%^*$ fail! @!#@%&@# FAIL!!! FAIL!!!!! !#@%& FAIL FAIL!!!
i think it's pointless to continue reading. i give up.

the past week has been horrible. i took it easy and thought i could get by. not expecting to score not expecting to get even a 50. only a mere 34, the passing grade. i come out after every paper, feeling more miserable than before. each night i cried before my paper in the morning, even though i knew it wouldn't help me do any better. i got panic attacks where my mind totally blanked out on me. i don't think i'll ever feel this bad for the rest of my life. and now i've got one more paper to go on friday and i already know i'm fighting a losing battle. this sense of helplessness.. is far too much for me to bear.

thanks elainey eunice celestina air poo vivis xiangling wormy mummy daddy stupidfatkorkor stan and all the rest who've been there to just stand by me. hugs silky and funky for sitting on the chair next to me every night.

coming next sem, i shall retake my failed modules (soci, econs and ibm). this round's failure is classic.. much as i wish i'd scrape through by some miraculous means...... it's tit for tat. i put in zero effort and get zero in return.
i've got no one to blame and i admit defeat. i don't have super duper power memory, i don't have a truckload of four-leaf clovers and beams of sunshine and rainbows shining over my head.
no it's not that bad. even if all my friends are moving on to year two, and i'd be all alone, i'll pull through.


i'll go at my own pace....nothing's wrong with being slower.



need help with setting up shop this weekend! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Milady opening at Far East Plaza on the 23rd of may (tentatively). Plus sized clothing, shoes, and accessories. please drop by. located at #01-67, under the escalator, next to spectacle hut.

to the previously flattened worm. pppfffffffttttt!


when i'm pissed make me laugh by acting cute and looking stupid. you must do whatever i ask you to do.
when I cry you are by default, in the wrong, even when i'm in the wrong.
appease me with nice pink things or lollipops and beg to be forgiven.


never attempt to keep quiet. it will make me angrier.
speak up for yourself. otherwise i'd hurl vulgarities and call you a wimp.
during an argument, attempt to speak faster, in any language, so that i won't be able to catch up.


your rebuttal must not offend/insult me in any form or manner. otherwise you'll be in deeper shit.


say something that'll never cross my mind..catch me unaware and make me contradict myself.
when that happens you win, and i stop crying.


when will all these ever get rooted in your brain?


in short. you must act miserable when i cry. drama rama i say.

TRAMPLES ON WORMY and follows to drive a tree tonner over him.
i dowan to bother anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

econs is fucked. once again history repeats itself. of all the things to forgot, you forget the AXIS of your graphs. wheeeeeeee.


http://www.starbucks.com.sg/promo/p_light_coupon.htm
extra coffee!

i haven't slept for more than 3 hrs the past two days, in a frantic attempt to cramp a whole year's syllabus into my brain.
last minute studying kills. when will i ever learn???


econs paper to drive me mad in 2hrs time.
there's a curve on the open economy graph with the initials of my name! how cool is that.


i pay $2000 to go through torture in the company of 2000 other people, and freezing temperatures. so cold you can't keep your fingers from shivering.
momo claims the pee in her bladder turns to ice and she pees ice-cubes.
HA HA. tell me about it.
and today's a rainy day. COLDER TEMPERATURES! UOL rocks my socks. they teach us survivor skills during exam.
i'm sure it's gonna snow at the expo. hehe. snowflakes on your graphs man.
maybe i can build a snowman and get graded for that instead.

hahahahhaa.....i dreamt of all the girls... i dreamt of touch..i dreamt of jerseys shorts caps and rugby balls..... i dreamt of oks..


i also dreamt of elaine and elaine's mum.. i dreamt her mum turned on all the 10 stoves and 1 oven... so i went to quin, crying, cause i thought her mum was gonna kill the entire family... hahahah...and quin just went to turn off all the stoves. bleahhhh make me feel so dumb.


i dreamt i took a free shuttle bus from school to the train station with quin... but i ended up in chongming's hostel cause i left my wallet in sch and quin didn't have enough to lend me...
and while i was at his hostel room, i dreamt i found out that chongming was cheating on me.


whoa. too much for one night man.
and QUIN! so much of you for the night.. this is a signnnnn... a sign that i miss you. SOMETIMES. muahaha =p

revision for maths paper on wednesday isn't really working out. basically it's just glory doing question after question and getting so many wrong answers because of errors here there everywhere. SIGH! brings me back to amaths detention days. just that back then, i had company!!! now i'm all by myself in my cold cold room mugging. ): ok i mean trying hard to mug.


*hugs pink pig from wormy*


i also think my brain has limited capacity.
i don't quite remember how to do stats already.
and stats is ermmm on tuesday?
OH MAN...


//dear god if you can hear me please grant me a powerup brain for the next 13 days although i honestly don't deserve it since i've been so laid back for the entire sem. but pls be kind oright? sends you lots of kisses and big big hugs.


bleah. self deceit. poutsssssssss.

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FUNKY!!!
rightssssssss.

ah! 9 days.
i think it's REALLY time to get down to work.
problem is, i don't feel like it.
fkit.


so many things on my mind.
ruining my sleep!
Arghhh.


i have a good mind to plug out all my comp switches tv switches game console switches telephone lines.
BUT.
my mind is far from good. it is faulty and hence i will not be doing so.
CHEYYYYY.

muahs! for the good time spent here!

out with the usuals today. coffeebean. drinks. and gossiping. love you steph and love you two fuckers. it was a solid three hours of laughter and entertainment. sending lots of kisses to steph bryan and stan. and thanks yaow koon giving us a ride to bojangles heh. longer cherry stalks next time ya.

((((((((((:

sweetheart i'm glad you made an effort to turn up for the outing with the bros. it was hard to put up that front when we were out with them.

i guess i really needed that two hour talk we had. i should've known better than to keep it to myself. exceeded capacity. bleahs. and it feels so much better to trash things out rather than keeping it inside of me for such a long time. my heart's so much lighter and i honestly feel so relieved now. thanks for your patience and your love.

suddenly feeling very very tired. i want a breakup.

checkup says all clear. but my mum insists it should be removed. boo hooo ):


my hair's damaged with hair dye, hair bleach, and chlorine from the swimming pool. the only probable difference between my hair and the hay that my guinea pigs chew on is probably the smell.
nah nah nah.


chomp chomp. i love my silky and funky. i feel bad that i'm buying a goldie this year end... am i betraying my guinea pigs???!!

talks with steph have always been wonderful...all the way from sec1 till now, 8 years later. the conversation just keeps going. love you to bits. always nothing something more to talk about sweetie.


and i realise after all these years, we've only taken one photo together. and that wasn't even a photo.. it was a neoprint. blaablooo. times like this, the evolution of digital cameras comes in handy.

hi all. i greet you with lots of can food in the background, and red in my hair.
streaks are out. say hi to patches.

yayyyyyyyyyy!!!! i cut my hair!
and now i've got rainbow hair.. okay not much of a rainbow but. red and golden and brown.. wheee

finally! a new blog skin.
abit too colorful. abit to cheery.
haaahaahaa..
wah lau ey.

haa. lied to chongming about going out with the touch girls at night and went out with another guy instead. the guy whom he hates. BIG MISTAKE. anyways the truth came out and he boiled inside like a pressure cooker.my god, it was hell. every word that came out from his mouth thereafter was filled with thorns and thistles.

but a little trip down to his place to pacify the angry heart and a bucket full of tears of regret proved useful. *claps hands* heheh guys..so easily softened by tears. but crying's like so loser ey... wth.

nfs-ed with the boyboy the entire sunday afternoon. he kept losing and i kept winning. won him hands down. competition level: ZERO. now who says guys are better at video games than girls are?

xie ting feng on tv yesterday night. wheeee. the whole world hates him but i'm still pretty much in love with him. hahaha. and the show made me think of those years back where cm bought chupa chups for me oh so often. *nudges my boy* WHERE HAVE ALL THE CHUPA CHUPS GONE?!??

coach carter with the girls at marina square and boy we must have created quite a scene in our mad dash to the cinema from city hall mrt station. then we made alot of noise in the bus, trying desperately to snap CLEAR photos while the bus was moving. siam kitchen saw many stories unfolding. aiya basically just damai's stories but HOHOHO. okayyyy to sum it all up we were basically very noisy everywhere. i think we could've been sued for noise pollution. WHEE.

gotta pump pump pump all the info into my head by this week. stats and maths into my little head and then stuff the whole chunk of econs notes down my throat next week. haaa. can somebody tell me how i'm gonna cramp one whole year's work in less than 2 weeks? i think i shld stop going out with cm for this month. his presence is an interuption to my studies.ELAINE LAINE!! MO MO!! i love you both with all me heart this month. so love me and teach me maths and stats and econs. heheh.

ahh. whoever says lying is easy, i'll kowtow to him. heh.

clear skies after the thunderstorm last night. hohoho. so soft hearted my darling boy is. MUAH!! i never meant to do those things to you...............

he's at my place playing need for speed underground with me. i keep winning and he keeps losing. there is no competition at all. none. zilch. hahaha.

oookie. i'm a happy girl. no not happy girl breastcream. eh no funny.

blahhhhh.

i'm lie free!!! or so i think.

toldhalfkepthalf.somethingsarebetterleftunknown.

so wrong but feels so right.

i should burn in a thousand hells.

coach carter with the girls today. awesome show. loved every bit of it. the rush to the movie theatre was madness. 6 girls running past everyone making plip plap sounds all over the place. and dinner time was filled with mad laughter. i bet the people around us wanted to tape our mouths up with transparent packing tape. MUAH love you girls.

happy birthday sweetie. hope you enjoyed urself lots and lots.

as a kid, i never had barbie dolls to play with.
at 20, i play with manequins which scare the wits out of me when i go to the toilet at night.


i am so bloody broke. fuckit.

oi eunice!

ERROR!! my life revolves around my two pweeg pweegs who are bigger than my twenty toes and fingers put together!!!

okay laaaa.. and, of late, HANDSOME BOY... shayanggg carpet!

am going to visit it again soon!!! muahahaha.

oh and i'm swimming thurs evening instead of friday.....

shayangggg carpet. muakekeke.

muahaa elaine came over today and tied a big blue flower over funky's head!
jurong point later with stupid wormy.. off to get more wheat grass for my guinea pigs, and oxbow cavy cuisine, which is finally in stock. ( :
guess what. i have five subjects to swallow and digest in three weeks... and i have barely started. muahkekeke..
sometimes i wonder when i will EVER learn to be prepared.
maybe never. hmmm!
god save america,
god save the king.
and god save me too!!!


saw the pretty pictures in ezdi's blog. everyone's looking good. and damai.. make uppp!!
wheeeee. how come i'm feel so free but i'm so busy. frowns.


bbq last saturday with the mjdds lot.
chicken wings, stingrays, marshmellows hotdogs and yeah you get my point, the usual bbq stuffies. all of which i couldn't eat coz i had no money to pay for it. not that they didn't offer but. heh!
bbq followed by MAHJONG later on at guangie's place. ooo! his room, refurnished with ikea goods for 300 bucks. now he's got a cosy corner and pretty orange lights. ikea rocks i tell you. and. mahjong is great. i love mahjong. i need mahjong ka khis.


sweetheartheart stayed over on friday and we played with the big bubbles and took so many photos. wheee!


cut my hair again and now it looks like a packet of dried hay stacked on top of my head. fuck.


too much incessant ranting. it's time to stop.

can i not go to the hospital pls?
but when i do can they please tell me it's nothing bad pls?
and if it's nothing bad can they pls tell me i don't need an op pls?
*bawls*

))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Funky sitting up, trying to be a little more human.





Funky! with a nice (actually not) purple ribbon.





Silky's long fur! after 15 minutes of intense combing...





and they're both very sleepy from posing for the camera.
hee! guinea pigs say good night!

been going in and out of far east nearly everyday. come saturday, we'll know if we clinched the deal. if they give the green light, i'll be plopping my fat ass at far east till the cows come home, only this time, i wouldn't be working for anyone. that thought alone makes things so much better.


chongming has 7 stitches on his chin and three chipped teeth. ho hum. i've got a bogay frankenstein as a boyfriend. frankengay! suits him perfectly, since he's a little gay anyway. what a silly boy.. fancy playing basketball and tripping over his friend's foot. careless careless careless! chipped teeth can certainly be patched.. but probably not a scarred chin. we'll just pray and hope that the scar will be a cool scar!
shayangggg worm baby.

it became from normal sleeping hours to dysfunctional sleeping hours. now it's totally haywire. i sleep on alternate days.
muahhahahahaah.


thank yous chongming for helping me build the guinea pig's cage and paying for half of it. wheee. -sends hugs-

hey girls.. i need your help.
if you know of any plus sized females within the age of 18 to 35, could u pretty please get them to do a simple survey for me?
the link's below...


http://freeonlinesurveys.com/rendersurvey.asp?id=83666


thank you very much!

hey girls
i need your help.
if you happen to know of any plus sized women between the age of 18 to 35, could you please get them to do this survey? thank you.

i've been playing with eraser shavings. rolling them all into one sticky clump and flattening it. it's disgusting i know. but it's probably the only fascinating thing that can be done at 5.20am in the morning.


i would like to buy ten different colors of play-doh. i love the smell of play-doh.


i would like to go for a swim at 7pm later today but i can't find anyone to swim with me. i need company in changing rooms at night. i hate the sound of dripping taps and showerheads. i hate the sound of running water. i'm afraid of murderers with knives and ghosts waiting to pounce on me as i turn at the corner.


i would like to take a glimpse at the year 2006 so that i wouldn't have to worry so much now.


i would like to go out with you cause i miss you a whole damn lot but we both know i can't.

i would like to go out with my baby and listen to him telling stories which i've heard a hundred times before while i sit quietly and don't say a thing.



i don't really feel like talking.


i would like to take time out from everyone and everything for a week. i'm tired and confused and boggled down by everything.


i think i'm going to stop playing with eraser shavings. my dad is up and awake and preparing for work...
and as usual, i'm still not asleep.

how could anyone so pretty be so handsome at the same time?

it's times like this i ask myself why i'm holding on. will tomorrow be worth the wait?


is it the dreams i have? the plans i've made which haven't been carried out, or am i simply hoping for a magical random bubble of splendous glitter to float past and pop over my head and make every single little thought, negative feeling, and insecurity go away?


so much heartache but all of it can be taken away just by a single hug. and then when you leave and i'm all alone, i feel like banging my head against the wall for not saying the things i wanted to say. and it all gets boggled up inside. and the feelings from the different events just jumble up inside. and now i can't even pin point anything.


but what am i complaining about? i seem happy enough. to others it's almost perfect. i talk about us like everything's absolutely wonderful. i make-believe that there can be nothing better than you. a splash of paint against a white wall may be seen as vandalism. yet i choose to see it as a piece of artwork.


i talk to you about you, me, us, and our future. but the actual future i see in my head? it's a blank.


and i know that tomorrow when i wake up, everything will go back to normal. everything will continue the way it has always been. absolutely perfect. love love, and more love.


when make-believe becomes reality, you don't really know what's real and what's not anymore.

i have been bitten by mysterious obnoxious insect. show no mercy to 6-legged creatures for you know not what they might do to you. be generous with the baygon, lest you end up like me.
species: annoynomous.
side effects: huge red lump with pus. (still growing)




failing eye-sight? can't see what's written?
let Pinky show you how to do it without the nerdy spectacles or flimsy blue tinted contact lenses...





"ahhhh..perfect!" she says.

i'm feeling so bloated.
enough of the junkies.
i need my parents back in singapore to cook me proper meals.
and to do the housework. i dowan to wash dishes mop the floor and scrub the toilet anymore. sob.


and so today i realised i haven't stepped into town since the thai express day. boo boo. i have no life.
hufflelump at cwp at 2.10pm! can't wait!


it's 2.34am!
i should start sleeping at more earthly hours.






DAMAI i'm free next saturday nods nods. (:

a few phrases to describe my past few days...




eat
eat
eat
eat
and eat.




*jiggles fats*

why can't i fall asleep even when i've got you lying by my side?
all i want is a proper 6 hour rest without a single thought lingering in my mind. without the wierd dreams and all.
i'm tired of waiting to be tired out before knocking out for a couple of hours and flipping around in bed drifting in and out of la la land.






i have a new found hobby - housework
keeps you busy all day long...
wheeee.

i lost my pencil in school last thursday.
and today,
baby bought me a nice purple pencil! YAY!

come to think of it, being sick isn't actually that bad. good for the tired mind. heh.

notice!
The monorail will cease operations from 16 March 2005. Please inform all Sentosa guests and island partners that the last monorail service will operat as per normal on 15 March 2005 from 10pm to 10.30pm

i'm feeling blueeeeeee

you know like,

blue blue sky blue kinda blue

rainbow blue blue

sea blue blue

my blue NB shorts blue

my blue pen blue

blue-black blue

blue's clues blue.

blue lar. blue.

i hate this kind of emotional spasms.

i feel like someone's stress ball...being squeezed at released at intervals..

to the one above, stop playing around with me.

monday// do not despise jp even though it's a neighbourhood shopping mall. jp rocks like a rocking chair. heh. met fadz, steph + bf, huiyee + chinaman bf, tianghway + bf, Jia + ed, at jp when i was with apple and cm. woohoo!

and white noise is boring. ZzZzz. waste of my money.

many movies which i wanna catch are coming out!

4th March: Series of Unfortunate Events

10th march: Hufflelump and Boogeyman

17th March: spongebob squarepants

oh my. gonn go broke!

i like home-cooked food.
cm likes packet food.
my mum cooked dinner.
cm came to eat.
now cm knows why i like home-cooked food.
haha.
okay that was tuesday.

today, eun and elaine popped by for more constantine! the more i watch it the more i think that man is so bloody hot. haha i miss the swimming days. elaine please come back to jurong to swim.. abandon clementi! hohooh.

celest why you never come with them sob sob sob. my dear golden haired monkey i haven't seen you for so long! ):

tomorrow i'll be going jp with apple to study. haa. big joke big joke. studying is like Zzzz

okay. can someone tell me how to come up with 100K? i'm absolutely clueless.

and soci sucks like crap la. making me dingey dongeys. bing bong!

going to throw myself out of the window! wheee!

a pic of myself and the one i cannot live without. :D

ooo i just found a very awful picture of her!

i shall label it, "classic horror".

i'm going to save it, develop it, and put it up on my wall for next year's halloween!

HA. HA. HA.

oh man. i'm so evil. bad karma will strike.

i didn't like what i saw. feeling bitter still.
you're sleeping outside on me couch and part of me wants to rip your hair from your scalp.
but it's a matter of trust. i trust you really didn't lie to me. her presence wasn't all that significant to you..so you didn't think it'd be that impt to inform me that she suddenly came down.
rights.
hum hoo hum. TRUST glory, TRUST!!! he's too gongs to come up with one perfect lie!




feeling queasy inside. cry cry. hugs my dear lightbulb and red baboon. thanks for being there for me!


okie. 5.55am.. time to wake me sleepy boy up for work.

i went to ikea on saturday to get my lime green curtains. you would've thought i've had enough of furniture but, no. i bought more furniture once again. an extra shelf and a low lying box to store my nitty gritty thinggies which don't seem to fit anywhere in the room. haha but i think i need more clips for my curtains. roarrr. apparently ten is not enough boo hooo.

sunday i went downstairs to watch them girls play touch. haa suddenly the taman jurong field has become HAPPENING. indians playing cricket, construction workers playing soccer, and with the new addition, tiny girls playing touch. goood. i love to watch. muahhh!

happy happy happy i was until i was suddenly consumed by loneliness and fear last night.

boo.

okay whatevers.

hi everyone

i'm a nice pink glittery fat balloon.

(:

ATTENTION ALL:
OUTING TO ROSS' PLACE CANCELLED

BOO! says:
its cancelled!!

postponed to sunday. tentatively. pls wait for more news from the beautiful gorgeous ROS.
haha. BOO! is ros btw.

whee

he pops into my room when i'm face flat on the bed,

brings me yakult on a hot thursday afternoon and sleeps like a baby with his feet sticking out of the bed.

so cute.

you're forgiven!

MUAH!!!

ooonice ezdi quin
xie xie ni.
the three of you made my day today. wheeee. (:
it's wonderful to have good company
and to top it all off,
SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!! *does the white chicks fingers movement*
muahahahhahaa..

go somewhere under peer pressure and and have great fun for a couple of hours, and destroy everything that you have,
or
stick to your promises and maintain that trust and mutual accomodation, and have people getting pissed off with you?
you decide.
what would you do if you were me?
*frowns*

my face is full of red spots and bumps.
make-up and a mountain heap of concealer doesn't help one bit.
the mirror in front of me screams "monsterrrrrr!!!!"
i'm agitated with everything and everyone.
just going to stay home and weep.
fuck chinese new year.
why can't they just leave me alone.

boyfriend for sale. going at $1 only.

plus points

*can carry things

*can do grocery shopping

*can be your shopping kakhi

*can wash dishes

*good movie companion

*doesn't eat alot

*makes a good bolster and warmth provider on cold days

negative points

*often goes missing (especially when a computer is in reach)

anyone interested? pls contact salesperson aka me - glory tan

why do i feel that all you care about is your comp?
sleep. sleep is good.




5.09am
been loooking for things to do. even tidied up my room (which basically has nothing to be arranged and thrown away).
i need more things to do.
gimme ideas.

if you see my msn status swinging in and out of your LCD/CRT monitor, i'm not fooling around or trying to catch your attention by signing in once every five minutes. it's just my router acting up. *naughty naughty*
//spanks the router's ass. oops it doesn't have one!


a hundred and sixty bucks for one rubbery attenna, two plastic casings, and metal chips. with that money i could feed a whole tribe in africa hahaahaaa. but i'm living in singapore so societal influences state that I MUST GET A WIRELESS ROUTER. so, too bad starving kids in africa. i care more about my personal welfare. thank you very much. hate me curse me place black magic on me make a voodoo doll and stick pins into it.. it doesn't really matter. *gleeful smile*


shower me with good luck all you people reading my blog entries. shower me NOT and thou shalt burn in hell and be banned from reading my blog ever again (not that i can larrr).
BLACKJACK BLACKJACK!!! hoho...

met shuhui at JUST (bugis) today.
she said to tell all u girls again that her house will be open on thursday morning for you all. (:
okay. msg passed. goodnight.

And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams




go away! go away!!!

i need a toyboy to whine to. my bloody boyfriend is playing blackjack in camp and doesn't wanna talk to me or message me. ROAR. fine la. when there's money and entertainment, don't need me already. boo hoo! toyboys please pick your number and wait to be selected. thank you very much. (: wheeeeeee.


eunice mer(shit)maid came over today for WHITE CHICKS and a bit of studying. white chicks was funny. mershit was even funnier. she resembles a little kid who can't stop moving around while watching tv. she moves from the middle of the sofa, to the extreme left, and then onto the floor directly in front of the tv. goon du. hahahaha.

baby has been running over to keep me company and feeding me with lots of good food. half boiled eggs and toast, stingray, and squid. slurps. it is a sin.




we went crazy over monopoly today. two monopoly boards COMBINED, with a tad bit of change in game style. there was no competition at all. he was declared bankrupt for not being able to pay $1600 cause he refused to tear down his hotels on scotts road. the game ended with me having more than $7000 at hand (not inclusive of property). wahahahaha.


duty calls. time to hit my books. try, i mean.

yeahhhh. the boyfriend came knocking on my door at 1pm in the afternoon with a pack of M&Ms milk chocolate in his hands - to keep me awake while i'm studying. so sweet. M&Ms milk chocolate, melts in your mouth not in your hand! and now it melts the heart too! haha.








he has redeemed himself from exile under the sea. *throws fishing net and fishes him out of the sea* mega hugs to provide some warmth after being abandoned in the vast open sea. haha.




but i bet he's only out to make me fatter with the chocolates.
*throws wormy back into the sea* boo hoo hoo.

eun, me, nad, ezdi, quin, ade, damai.

with a mountainous load of LOVE. literally.

blog lag!!!!

dinner at fish & co. (parkmall) with the girls. whilst waiting, out came the camera phones, digicams snip snap snap snap! all the snapshots making me dizzy. thank you girls for the necklace and bracelet and demin skirt. SO pretty! love. love. big bear hugs to all. suffocate you to death aahhahas.

after waiting for eons, we had our share of humongous pieces of fish, mountain load of fries and lots of tar tar sauce. ate and took pictures and then it got too cold inside.

moved out of fish & co. with intentions to find some damn nice place to slack at but we ended up at the busstop outside parkmall. not very glammmm but when the company's good, anything goes.

anyways it's a COOL place k.. lots of wind and lots of people flocking into the busstop..

crowds = happening place, no? heheheh.........

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

time with the girls is ALWAYS good.

celest where are you larhhhh.. missing in action. you owe me a birthday song. karate chops you at your neck. heh heh.

chongming you spoiler. you spoilt our perfect day. burn in hell you ninkumpoom. drown in the depthless seas, get swallowed in a enormous clam and live your life in a shell under the sea and be cut off from the rest of the world! may you die of loneliness in the cold and miserable darkness you evil worm. DIEEEEEE!!!! BOooooo!

pouts.

it isn't love that runs through my veins. ): yeah man i think it's something else.
things always balance themselves out in the end. good or bad, you decide.
it feels awful when things don't turn out right. that feeling, is amplified by a hundred percent when a happy day ends off on a bad note. i didn't mean for you to miss your last train, didn't expect your comp to crash.
all the laughter was rounded up with tears rolling down my face. not a very good feeling.
feeling quite blah-ish really. i should hang a sign "not to be disturbed" over my neck. easily irritable to the max. first victims of my horrible temper - brother and dino. heh.


shall blog about dinner with the girls when i feel better. on a lighter note, i had alot of fun today. love u all.




happy birthday ng chongzhi. you're 9! haa. please whack your brother for me. he's an ass. ROARrrrrrrrr.


shall go hug and sniff at Humpy. you don't love me but Humpy does. my faithful Humpy. *sayangggggg*

7 hours more to breakfast with worms! half boiled eggs and toast. slurps. nothing beats the trad breakfast. and then a whole afternoon of ma xiu leng. ahh. i love saturdays! i have me boy all to meself!


okie 4 am and i'm tired. shall sniff Humpy and go to sleep. Zzzz.zzz.zZz.zz.

sniffing at my Humpy now. makes me feel like sleeping. aww. pouts.


wa laus. SIM eats me money like no one's business. 210 bucks for revision workshop. evil people they are la. because of people like them, i'd have no money to shop for new year clothes + shoes. no money to go out. no money to watch movies!
i'm going to send a bomb to UK to bomb HQ down.
ho ho ho.. not all terrorists are muslims. some might be chinese too
*points to myself, and all the other sim students*
potential terrorists!!
all for the sake of money.
kachingchings rock the world.
bill gates! i think you need a god daughter! -smiles gleefully- heh.


ding dongs.
*sniffs at Humpy again*

thank you all for the birthday greetings. stephanie poh agnes qiuwen ezdi nadiah sunitha xiaotao celest eunice quincy damai elaine stanley siongchie yongxian edward xinying huiyee jiawen keatwee gillian shihan weishan wanhoon hweeping chailee guangrong siaotin weilin velder vivis apple minghann minyang ruifen puaygek mummy daddy kor kor and dino.
i feel so loved!

the rest of you who forgot.. you should burn in hell hahahahahhaha :P
and to the one who didn't keep your promise.. Hmmmmm....... ): i'm disappointed.


and,
quote bin "[i] forced [her] to sing [me] a birthday song."
hahahahaha... i love it! not love to make her do dumb things but loved your singing k..


i went to sentosa with shihan in the morning to tan my ass off. it must've been our lucky day cause we saw two cute caucasian guys. one who looked like the guy in OC and another, who looked like... ermmm.. he just looked nice la.
dear cow, thanks for ur huge black board. "it's worthwhile", yes i know. (: and the lovely white wallet! yayness. *hugs u*


burned a hole in my pocket to buy his white adidas shorts. i'm poor. i think i need to go out with someone who has cheaper taste. someone who likes things from pasar malam. 3 for $10.



wormy + glowy + Humpy
thanks baby for spending the day with me, for Humpy and the brownies and the wonderful dinner at holland v. i know you've put in alot of effort to make this day feel so special. ilu.

went for dinner with my brother and his gf and worm yesterday at market one. finally got to eat my stingray. YAY! maybe i should just ditch sushi tei aside on tuesday and head down to market one for more stingray!
the four of us came back home to watch American Idol. do they have karaoke in america? coz some people should honestly listen to themselves.




down to parkmall in 12 hours time for my birthday dinner. i foresee the weighing scales moving a few more millimetres - certainly to the right, but maybe to the left if i lao sai. the boyfriend needs to sit through family dinners nearly once every fortnight. nightmare for him. poor boy.




7am!!! haha.time to roll around more and try to sleep.the pains i go through every night to get to sleep. anyone has cough mixture they don't want? pass to me! then i can sleep at more earthly hours. mmmmmmmm yum.. i kinda miss cough mixtures.

Words to describe the situation of now: irritated that i can't sleep before 6am
Things I want: 1/denim skirt 2/the death of the starfish 3/a new wallet 4/keane's CD 5/webcam 6/512 ram
Songs listened to: right now, another level - from the heart (recommended by mershit)
Things accomplished: 1/stayed committed. 2/haven't been splurging.
Windows open: 1/blogger.com 2/msn 3/the room windows? heh.
Things around the computer: 1/wires 2/my green robot 3/street directory 4/more wires
Thoughts of now: i can't sleep. what should i wear later. is chongming asleep.
E-mails: sti.newsletter? my faithful emailer. heh.
Lyric: from the heart? it's playing over the speakers.. what other lyrics could possibly fill my mind?
Random: xiaoying
Spell your name backwards: yrolg
Where do you live?: yung an road, blanglah land.
Describe yourself in three words: awesome. gorgeous. liar. *LOL*

Who is your worst enemy?: xiaoying. heh. poor girl she did me no wrong.
If you could have ANY animal for a pet, what would it be?: my guinea pigs.
Do you know what a spork is?: i don't. is it another kind of pork?
What is the latest you've ever stayed up?: this is a redundant question.
Ever been to Belgium?: noooooooooo. where's that! i only want to go to venice. or HK to shop.
Toothbrush: i can't remember. i don't brush often.. i have bad oral habits. but my teeth are still more perfect than most people's. bite me. (:
Jewelry worn daily: two studs and one stick in my belly. one ring on my ear.
Underwear: mostly black
Shoes: nike! but i prefer my noisy white sandals and roxy slippers
Nail polish: who needs nail polish. my nails are gorgeous.
Handbag: bags have. handbags, i don't think i have lar.
Favorite top: how bout favourite shorts? my white aztec ones! but the zip's spoilt. ):
Favorite pants: levi's type 1 925. (:
Perfume: 1/lancome miracle 2/flower by kenzo
CD in stereo right now: CD player spoilt la! i want a new one. bites.
Tattoos: no ink in my body.
Piercings: 1/ears 2/belly (i mean tummy. heh.)
Current music: mp3s playing on the comp.
Wearing: bright blue reebok shorts + bpghs guides.scouts camp tee!
Hair: tied up. over-dyed. dry. dying.
Makeup: hmmmmm.
In my mouth: saliva. and my tongue.
In my head: my brain and thoughts of worms hmmmmmm.
Hearing: the pc making ALOT of noises. i think this comp's gonn crash like the laptop.
Wishing: for my heat radiating bolster aka wormy ng.
After this: TRY to sleep. or maybe watch more ma xiu leng.

i have revived the starfish!!!!!!!
muahahahahahahhhahaha...


and now it's stronger than before.
(oh no..... shakes head)

feeling stoned after a heated argument conversation with worms. any more of these three-hour sessions hurling hurtful words and i swear i'll turn into a walking zombie.




but i'm glad that things are cleared up now.
breezy days ahead pls! *prays*




every teardrop you shed today, will not be a wasted tear.
i'll keep everything you said in mind.
only to love u more and nothing less.
*hugs u*

i work three times a week, three hours each
and i spend half the amount i earn, to pay for cab rides to school.
honestly i think i should just get my lisence.
haha. no wonder my bank account isn't growing. pouts.


messy hair. gonna get it cut and dyed. wheeee!
money money money. (not so wheeee!)


thanks quin! my smiles for you.
and you and you and you and all of you.

rights. today, i went for lecture which seemed like forever (my god. stats!),
i walked to RELC which seemed like forever,
i shopped for a lil while *why couldn't it be forever*,
i typed at the work place for as long as forever,
i talked to chongming like forever has come to stay,
and.
tomorrow,
i'm going to plop my lazy self at my office in the morning to sip and cocktail and read my book. HAA.


to date, i have watched LOVE, ACTUALLY. seven times. love, actually. is pretty much a reellie nice show actually. and love, actually, is all around. muahahha. i shall marry myself to my love, actually dvd.


erms......enough of blogging. i shall go wind up my music globe and let it play into the phone to wake the silly boy up. HEH.

after nearly 190 hours into the new year, i've finally thought of my new year resolution! (not very new actually, since it's already been 8 days but heck it since 8 out of 365 days is just 2%). ANYWAYS, about the new year resolution.........
i shall not cry so much for 2005!

amidst the cookie baking today, i thought of the girl whom i idolised in sec sch. keidi! whoa. those who were from bp would definitely have remembered her. the girl with an attitude and a solid voice. and she can rap like whoaaaaaa. which reminds me, i don't see her at lakeside mrt station anymore. HMMMM.


how come other people get surprises from their other halves and i don't? things like walkways lighted up by neon light sticks and fireflies in a bottle. *pouts* i need some pampering larh. -pokes wormy- lazy worm..do ur job and start diggin!